The Waltz Dramatic - a Honey and Clover Fansite

HAPPY NEW 2012!

2012-01-01T00:00:00.000-06:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Is your Computer a boy or a girl?

2011-11-12T20:29:00.000-06:00

Like to find if your computer's a boy or a girl?

1. Open Notepad
2. Type the following line in notepad:
CreateObject("SAPI.SpVoice").Speak"I love you"
3. Save file as: computer_gender.vbs
4. Run the file ... If you hear a male voice, you have a boy ;) If you hear a female voice, you have a girl :)

song of the moment: Good King Wenceslas
mood: Relient K

11.11.11

2011-11-11T23:11:00.000-06:00

Have a great weekend everyone! Christmas is just around the corner!

a blog. and he dumps this entry

2011-09-14T03:55:00.001-06:00

Just gonna dump out what I've missed writing these few days.

I just filled my first 'drafts' notebook. It's where I put my draft entries in writing. That notebook was about two hundred pages, so I'm really sure how it got filled. It's probably because I'm writing about life, anger, devotion, inferiority, depression, love and anime or ladida. I find it very helpful for an aspiring writer, to keep one handy. I get the most interesting things when I least expect it.

I just missed writing about 9/11. Has it been ten years already?

Since school has already started, I'm back to the days when I would appreciate the worth of a day off. As you know, I don't have any. I leave the house seven days a week. So I can't wait for thanksgiving. That's my next day off. But I guess... when thanksgiving comes... that means I'd have to leave home again, so I can go to my relative's house for thanksgiving.

I wonder when can I just stay home for the day. I'll make a day if I have to.

My professor said that it's not true to tell someone that you don't have time to something. Everybody gets the same 24 hours. Our priorities are just different. So when he asked us if we read chapter one already, and we said no, he told us it's not because you didn't have time to read. We weren't able to read it because we had different priorities. Good thing that course was over.

Long Tuesdays and Epic Saturdays. Sigh. I get really stressed during these days. Work and school at the same time makes a really long day -- that's every Tuesday for me. Saturdays are epic. I wake up in the morning to work and then head for drum practice. Come home with a headache every Saturday night, and then I have to prepare a lesson for Sunday before I sleep. Although, I always get a good night sleep afterwards. It's really great to sleep knowing I've accomplished so much in one day.

Actually, I'm experiencing a mental block. It's an utter fail and a complete mess right now; I have a mental block on my novels (ALL of them), and a mental block on fansite updates. iFail.

While I was on my way home, I saw someone riding this bicycle with very high handlebars. There's nothing wrong with the picture except for three things: 1.) it looked like he was having a hard time steering the 'bike', 2.) he looked drunk, 3.) it was already 10:30 at night. If he was showing his bicycle off, there was no one else on the street to see. He might endanger other people, say the motorists (coz' he was riding and curving beside the sidewalk) and he can endanger himself as well. It was just really an odd sight for me.

Wow, it's 4:28AM on my clock. It's okay. My class starts at 6pm. But I can imagine the weird look on your face. Summer break is over, but sleep cycle is still messed up.

song of the moment: huling yakap ng mundo - imago
mood: sleepy

a blog. on your marks

2011-09-06T01:06:00.004-06:00

I just got home from our last minute camping. My break is officially over and I'm about to head back to business. Wow. Three months of no day off. Will I survive? I will. I'm not that worried anymore. My next break would be the Christmas break. Can't wait for it. It's the -ber months already, right? It's so fast.

While I was lying on my bed, I was thinking if I were to take a hiatus here. But no, I'm not taking any hiatus. I have great feeling that there'd be loads of stuff to write about. So there won't be a hiatus. It's been a quick break for me, just a month of break, but I've been able to do a lot of personal stuff. It's also my reason why I haven't been able to make updates, but I will go back working on the fansite because writing here is an outlet.

From here on, the journey starts again. I am writing right now to record what that I feel peaceful. Let me change into my work uniform and get everything started. Another chapter is about to unfold and I hope everyone reaches their own happy ending for this chapter.

song of the moment: Kisapmata - Sarilikha
mood: peaceful

a blog. summer summer don't go away... yet.

2011-08-14T15:06:00.001-06:00

We're on the third week of August. EEEK! Please, summer! Don't end yet! Keep away September! I'm going to tell you how my schedule would look like for my fall term. Monday, I'd be working in the evening. Tuesday, I have class on the morning and work in the evening. Wednesday, I have classes on programming in the evening -- 3 straight hours of boredom. *groans* Thursday, I have classes in the morning. Friday, I have lab. Saturday, I have work in the morning til evening and drum practice afterwards. Sunday, I go to church as a Sunday school teacher and then I play drums. So you can tell, this home-body is going to be away from home for a while. Aaagh. I'm telling myself to see how the first week would feel like. Lectures end on November. Come what may.

I was walking in downtown in the morning last Friday. I went to grab my citizenship card, afterwards, I was feeling hungry. I wanted to get some breakfast first before coming home. On the pavement, I found these.

The streets in Winnipeg are so clean that people choose to eat their fries on the pavement.

I'm running out of summer time. I've been able to relax. But I still want to publish those proposed fansites, but I'm still making my research what type of fansite it would be. There's a lot of work that needs to be done here in Blog Hina, so I can't just make that jump. I've been able to do that before though. I wonder if I'm getting old. Is 23 old? Everyone gets the same 24 hours anyway. So my priorities just changed. *Somewhere Only We Know by Keane starts playing in my head*

song of the moment: Prosthetic Head - Greenday
mood: Bummed

a blog. A Shout to Summer

2011-06-30T20:40:00.001-06:00

Summer's here! It has become an understatement to say that time comes so fast. June's almost at an end; I've lived more than half of 2011 already. To slow down the time, I've promised myself that I'd be doing a lot of things this summer. Augh, I don't even want to mention fall yet. Now that I've finished my school year -- FINAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLY -- I should just enjoy this break. It's the break that I've been WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAITING FOOOOOOOR. You can only imagine how happy I am. *sobs tears of joy*

I'm elated to go back into my writing mode. I've been thoroughly occupied with other obligations. I have a great feeling that my school year wrapped up pretty well. The ups and downs, the exhaustion and the inspiration, the sweat and the tears, my first academic year was a COMPLETE experience for me. And I'm grateful.

Blog updates are a Go! But what do you guys plan to do this summer? I hope you have a productive and a fun-filled summer too.

song of the moment: Paraiso by Smokey Mountain
mood: elated

a blog. breathe it in

2011-06-11T00:41:00.004-06:00

Friday should be renamed as Freeday in my calendar. It's my only real day off. I get to wake up late or sleep as much as I want. I can't wait for my schedule to change. There's only a few days left this spring and when summer comes, you have no idea how happy I would be. I've lost 10 months worth of sleep. And I need break from work and school real bad. Sometimes I envy the high school kids, because they can still live carefree, but after high school, the real battle begins.

I'm really frustrated. I can't spend much time with my friends or cousins. We usually eat out, play games, make music, or drive around. I haven't done those for a long time now. There's just almost two weeks left 'til the end of the term. I have to hold out. And that also means I have to keep working to save money.

I don't want to think about the next school year yet. But I've already received an email informing me my appointment to register courses. Sigh. Like I said, I don't want to think about it yet. That means I have to start planning for my schedule, including what shifts should I take at work. I don't know how I managed last year, I had a pretty good schedule. The courses next year would be harder. Sigh. Thinking about it makes me exhausted already.

song of the moment: Breathe by Sixpence None the Richer
mood: sleepy

a blog. Tadaima desu yo!

2011-05-03T23:12:00.004-06:00

I'm back! Well actually, I've been back into updating my anime fansites since the 26th of April but I wasn't able to blog in TWD. I didn't know what to write so I just let the days go. I prefer to avoid cross-posting as much as possible. It makes everything boring and repetitive.

Neeways, I'm also back in school. I'm taking one business course in the University of Winnipeg. And even with one course, it's most of my attention in life. I have a feeling it's going to be a drag and expensive; not only did I pay $400 for the course, I have to pay $50 more to play a multiplayer simulation game. They should've picked a free simulation game! It's a business simulation game required for each student. I don't mind paying for it, but it's just that we need to pay for it online. I, for one, don't like paying things online. I don't have a credit card, so I might have to borrow my bro's credit card. And that is troublesome.

Thirty percent of our grade will come from how well we're playing the simulation game. And it's not like one of those Facebook games where you run a cafe or a some sort of restaurant or build a farm. This game's tedious. We have to make business plans. Monitor our factory. Check our plant condition. Hire and fire employees. Advertise. Adjust prices. Like. Wow. It's serious business. We have to form teams, compete with other teams, and we have to write a business report and submit it to the instructor. So if the game involves advertising, you'll see some kind of advertising here. I'm counting on you guys so that we can win the game... and pass the course.

Speaking of games, have you heard of Nintendo's Project Cafe? It's colloquially known as the Wii 2. This next-gen console is scheduled to come out on 2012. Interesting. 2012. Pretty fast. I haven't gotten a 3DS yet. I'm still waiting for Animal Crossing 3DS' release date. Oh. And I don't even have the new Xbox 360 yet. Why? That's because I'm saving for my tuition fee. But who needs post-secondary education, right?

song of the moment: Army by Ben Folds Five
mood: lazy

a blog. March to April Hiatus

2011-03-20T06:03:00.003-06:00

I've put a lot of thought on it. I've done some brainstorming in my computer, on my desk, and at work. I've also done the PMI method or the plus, minus and interesting. I've come to a conclusion that I'll be taking a break for the following weeks. But let me get some things clear first before I continue to write further. So please allow me to give you a couple of NOs.

NO. I will NOT drop this fansite. *take note I am putting this entry on the following list of sites* Nu- huh. No. Iie. That's a negatory, good buddy. This break is not a discrete way of walking away and quitting nor will I be putting an adoption sign during or after my break. So being as redundant as it sounds, I will continue making updates, adding more content, and fan-material.

NO. This break is not indefinite. I'll be back on April 26, 2011.

NO. I'm not exhausted from running the site to the point of dumping it. Are you kidding me?! I'm having fun. There's just some things that needs to be taken care of.

You might be wondering why I'm taking a hiatus. There's just so much stuff over here. It's mostly work and university. It's the end of a term again and the FINALS are coming. I'll need time to study on my Math finals *they're brutal to the core*. I will be making preparations for my Business presentation and the finals as well. I am getting pressured to work harder in the office. I may be able to get the position I'm aiming for. And a raise. Wee. I'll need some time to rest. I need some time to assert myself. It's a time to regroup.

These are the following websites that will be affected on my hiatus:

FruitsBlogsket | including the FB Shires and FTP (Furuba Territorial Project)

Blog Hina (CYF Love Hina) | including the Love Hina Project

SchoolRumblog | including the Harima Crossing

MyCircumstances | including the Kare Kano prefecture and corresponding blogs.

The Waltz Dramatic | corresponding sub-pages will be on hiatus.

Chonegai | Team Chobits and Team OT... are still on hiatus, I'm afraid more details below.

Pardon the shameless plug. ':)

As I've said, I'm not dropping any of the above. Okay. I'll give you more reassurance why I would continue:

I treat each of my fansite as a WIP.

The FruitsBlogsket Memorable Quotes is not finished. 16 more episodes to go.

Love Hina Project Gallery is not complete. Still waiting for episodes 18-26 + Special episodes + Love Hina Again.

Love Hina Project has just added Kentaro's Quarters. Kentaro would be really pissed if I abandon ship right now.

I've just added a section of birthday reminder for Blog Hina. Making the Love Hina Project Worldplay a richer experience.

Since there's a new addition to Love Hina Project, you can take a hint that there's gonna be more addition in the future. Fine. Motoko. There.

The FruitsBlogsket chirpy and the LHP weather widget are just too interesting to pass up.

Season One episode recaps are still unavailable at The Waltz Dramatic.

The SchoolRumblog screenshots are... missing?! wth. Where are they? *checks server... facepalm* they're not published yet. Sorry, I'll put them online on SchoolRumblog after the break.

At least two new sections for Harima Crossing are needed to surpass the beta/initial stage. Plus I like the name Harima Crossing -- if you guys get the drift.

It's been two years since I stopped posting in My Kare Kano but I HAVE NO INTENTION of DELETING IT. I'm still getting comments from it btw. And I have so many memories too precious to make me delete it. Ahh. the 56K dial-up days.

Kare Kano prefecture needs an update to its design.

Chonegai *checks last entry* uhm... yeah. Still No. *facepalm. THAT OLD?! REALLY?!* Go Team Chobits and Team OT. Anyway, the content is still there. And I'm not giving it up for adoption. Like MyCircumstances, a lot of things happened, a lot of adjustments have taken place, during the life of Chonegai.

I treat each of my fansite as a WIP. Besides, they're all part blog.

And my sink has a leak, the laundry needs to be done, Jog at the warm days of spring, don't forget the milk and your dentist appointment.

Still not convinced? After brainstorming, the PMI method, and consulting with my portfolio I am interested in launching not one but two new fansites before the end of summer 2011. Type in 'ef fansite' in Google and you'll find Euphoric Field. Check the dates and you'll see how old is the latest entry. THIS one, I was supposed to delete. But it's official I will follow it through. Therefore, I'm announcing that I'll be launching an ~ef fansite -- The Tale of Memories first. I hope you guys like the ~ef anime series too.

What about the second one? Hmm... I've already picked the anime title and the name for the site. In fact, I've already reserved a working HTTP address hosted by Blogspot. But I'm still undecided which host I shall pick. Since Blogspot is awesome *Thank you Blogspot*, I might be using Blogspot. Lemme give you a hint. It has something to do with Kimi----.

So expect the usual content: like character biographies, screenshots, memorable quotes, roleplay and MORE. And I'll stop here.

Oh yeah. And another NO. I am not chewing more than I can bite. This isn't something that's too much to handle. Really. And you might be thinking that I have so much time in my hand. I LOL. If you are, then please start reading at the top again. I'm trying to explore my potential. Plus, HTML, Programming and writing are good on my resume. *wink wink*

Think of it as an act of putting in motion on the matter that you like to do. Like playing videogames and going further. Drawing and having them published online. Playing the guitar and writing your own chords and lyrics. Writing reports and writing extra for the people or the things you love. Why would you restrain yourself from expressing your passion?

I'll be dropping by and will still reply to your feedbacks. Thank you for your continued patronage, for the hits, for your visits, for your comments, for telling your friends, and for your feedback. Thank you for the motivation and thanks for your patience. I WILL SEE YOU in April.

song of the moment: Crawling in the Dark
mood: sleepy.

the 8.9 magnitude earthquake in Japan

2011-03-12T01:43:00.000-06:00

A 8.9 magnitude Earthquake has devastated Japan. It's the worst Earthquake in the Japanese history. I'm praying that my relatives and friends there are okay. I haven't heard any news from them yet, nor received any email. I'm praying for their safety in Tokyo. Let's not forget that just a few weeks ago, a 6.3 magnitude Earthquake shook Christchurch, New Zealand. The recent series of disasters make me think about what's happening around the world. What do you think?

song: Always by Switchfoot
mood: wondering

a blog. really? the coast is clear?

2011-03-04T02:06:00.003-06:00

Term test... done. Article review... done. Finally, I'm free for a couple of weeks! I like this. Correction, I will be spamming the like button. Wow. I can live like a bum again!

It's funny. I am so used to having so much work that when everything's finished I wouldn't believe that the coast is clear. I feel paranoid; there's gotta be something that needs to be finished. And it's ironic that despite that I loathe having so much work, after I've handed every report, written every test and finished every homework, I get bored. Hilarious. Time to party! No-wait. It's still too cold outside. I can't wait for summer. Spring's cold too.

When summer appears on the calendar, I'm gonna travel around the province. Or out of province if there's someone willing to drive for me. I'm working on a novel that sort of ties in with traveling. I can't tell you any details yet and this novel has been put on hiatus for two years now. Thank the heavens I now know how to continue project.

Writing. That reminds me. Do you know what you want to be when you grow up? I still don't. *Don't tell mom and dad if you're reading this, little sis* Or else, I'm gonna cut your allowance by 1/10. Haha. Such is the life of a youth. See, I've always wanted to work with computers. And I want to run a business -- via team entrepreneurship or a micropreneur. But I also want to teach. Plus, I want to write books along the way. So I just need some more time how to tie everything.

Let's just say, I'm working on my dreams right now and it isn't easy.

During these times when the world is dramatically changing, tenacity, discipline and courage are assets. I discovered that when you finish high school, there's no turning back. Actually, I've finished high school twice -- I have two high school diplomas -- and I need to figure out my future more than ever.

song of the moment: Pop song for us rejects by Silverchair
mood: full

a blog. not much of a Friday day off

2011-01-14T21:05:00.002-06:00

Not much of a Friday. If only I woke up at 9am but I slept until the afternoon. Which makes me wonder: how could I sleep at least 12 hours? I didn't do anything exhausting yesterday. I sleep so much. I guess winter does this to you. And probably the bed I'm using right now.

My mom and dad are on vacation and I'm using their room because it's a king size bed. I sleep in a dinky single mattress that's not flat and hard on my back. It's manageable but after sleeping for so long on this small bed, I can't seem to get up after sleeping on the king sized one. So that's my excuse why I didn't get up early. It's the bed's fault. Both of them.

There was so much snow today. Why is it still snowing? I remember that it snowed so hard last November that the amount of snow that fell is equal to the TOTAL amount of snow that fell during the 2009-2010 winter in Winnipeg. The provincial government actually said that they ran out of funds to clear the roads. And now it's still snowing... hard.

Around 2:50, I left the house and I drove my cousin to work. She got late. Everybody was driving like a turtle. Afterwards, me and my other cousin went to eat. I didn't eat anything before hand, no breakfast, no lunch nor brunch, so I was dying of hunger inside the car. After an hour and a half of driving, we were able eat. Finally, then another hour and a half driving on our way home. We stopped for some groceries and bubble tea. So we spent approximately three hours on the road because of the snow and traffic.

Winter makes driving fun.

song of the moment: Kahit Anong Kalagayan by Sarilikha
mood: hungry again

happy new 2011!

2011-01-01T00:00:00.002-06:00

Happy new year to everyone! 2011 is going to be a great year. I just know it will. First thing's first, I'd like to thank everyone for the hits and visits, you guys are the best and this site will be all for nothing if it weren't for all of you! You've rocked my 2010 and please look after me this 2011 as well.

2010 has been an emotional rollercoaster for me, a lot of ups and downs. But I feel like I've learned a lot of things and accepted a lot of facts in life. I can't make a better past, but I can only make my future better with the present I received. God, thank you for everything.

Let's make the year great. Let's start and let's not wait.

a blog. holiday mode

2010-11-28T01:48:00.001-06:00

November's almost wrapped up and it's almost time to unwrap December. Plus the presents. Winter arrived early this year. I don't like snow very much, but it's here to stay for five months. Or seven even. Anyway, I don't care. I've just finished 2 of 3 university requirements. Term's almost over. I'm going into holiday mode!

despite the snow, I decided to try the swings.
When I said I'm going into holiday mode, that doesn't mean I'll be busy this holiday. It means that I've more time for myself. Yey. I've been really busy. Meeting the requirements that were due the past week was a miracle in progress; I gotta say. Wednesday: Finished a Research Paper, Created a Research Presentation, Finished a speech and studied for my Statistics term test. I slept for 3 hours and I had to present all the research stuff next day and I finished the term test. When I came home, I just slept like I had a hangover. Friday, I stayed hibernating.

should've brought my gloves. but since I'm already a cool kid, I thought nvm.

one of the better days this winter
It's time to buy presents. I got myself a guitar from my Dad. I didn't know that HE WAS EAGER to buy me presents. I told him I wanted a guitar yesterday, and then I came home and saw this guitar next to my computer. What a speedy response. I should've said a 3D flat screen instead.

Speaking of dad giving me my presents, it's my Mom's birthday today!

song of the moment: Hanggang sa Muli by Kenyo
mood: stupid

a blog. dadaaan! Back to school!

2010-09-06T23:05:00.001-06:00

September's here and I'm going back to school. Give me a moment to properly thank God for the long vacation.

Ah yes, the long awaited back-to-university life is here. I'm going back to sleep early and it's also time for me to wake up early. I usually wake up around 3pm when I work and 6pm when I have the day off *only to wake up that the day's already over*. It's been almost a year since I stopped going to school but it's gonna take effort to reset myself. I don't know if it'll take a day only. The last time I made it a routine to wake up early, I experienced withdrawal symptoms; that was when before I entered grade 12.

Summer's almost over and I bet you've had a more interesting summer than I did. So what did I do this summer? I haven't gone camping yet, that's one; but my friends told me we're gonna do it at the end or in the middle of September. which means we're gonna camp when it's cold.

We went paintballing this past Friday. We were involved in a somewhat car accident on our way but that didn't stop us from going, it's for my friend's birthday. Paintball is fun. We played four games of team deathmatch and we were tied 2-2. Then for closing, we played Free-for-all and I won. Yeah. I guess all those games in CS, CoD, HLDM, Quake, Unreal Tournament, L4D, ... etcetera paid off. Even though I played bots most of the time.

Ah but my thought of going back to school spoils my mood. To tell you the truth, I'm a bit nervous going back because I don't know anyone in University of Winnipeg. I mean, I have friends who are there but they're not really my close friends or they're not freshmen. So I'll have to sort things out first in orientation and memorize the campus. And to be frank, I'm a little shy. No, it's not a lie. *read frank* oh man, this is loser talk. I'm sure I won't be entirely alone.

So here I go, as I tread into the depths of life. I find myself under pressure. It's going to be an interesting school year. I bet. I'm taking programming. But I'm not really sure about it. I don't want to worry. I've experienced this before. As soon as I get the hang of things, each piece will fall into place.

song of the moment: red lips by chicosci
mood: undecided

a blog. before the end of August

2010-08-31T03:13:00.002-06:00

I'm sorry for my absence. I was in a frenzied mess. My childhood best friend passed away and my pet dog passed away as well. It wasn't easy. Anyway, I'm not here to make you guys depressed. I've been such a person for a while now. I better move on. I'm fine by the way. Despite my loss, I'll be okay.

August is almost over. September's here. And when September's here, that means fall's here. And when fall comes, that means it's time to fall on my bed because it's time to go back to school. Yes, sweet university life. I can't even stress how stressed things will be this September.

So what have I been doing these past couple of weeks? Nothing much. Writing stories. Drawing. Playing videogames. Reading. And playing some more. I plan to go paint-balling and probably do an emergency camping with some friends next week. I'm also building a website based on nostalgia. I feel that my brain is running out of hard disk space and so I need to write it down before I forget. I lawl when I read some of my entries written back in the good ol' days. I intend to trip my memory into a nostalgic overdrive.

It rained today. And I'm nursing my common cold. I went to work and finally I've unlock the 'go to work sick' achievement... if there's such a thing. Good thing my cold didn't act at work. Actually, it's very ironic because I felt better at work. It's like work is the medicine. The rain wasn't that hard when I came to work, but it really poured when I came home.

Mom asked me to buy her an iPod. Isn't it funny? Isn't it peculiar too? She wants it on her birthday. Erm. Isn't it supposed to be the other way around? Last time I knew is I've been throwing tantrums and demanding them stuff for my birthday; time's changed. And yeah, from here on, I guess it's time for us to take care of our parents.

song of the moment: Taos pusong pasasalamat by Sarilikha
mood: cold

a blog. not gonna fall apart

2010-07-21T03:54:00.003-06:00

I didn't go to church this past Sunday and I got burned for it. My Monday was utterly horrible and I guess that's to be expected since I needed to be shaped up. I knew it was Sunday and instead I stayed all night playing on the computer. When it was time to go to church I kept flat on the bed. When Monday came, work was ugh... oh well. I realized something after that. I'm happy though.

Fall is almost here. Now now don't fret. I'm one of the people who enjoy summer and SUMMER BREAK, however, I'm also excited of going back to university. After how many years? almost four years have passed and I'm back in university. It'll be fun! 3 hours of sleep at max, waking up early in winter and walking in sub zero temperatures, writing term papers, typing 10 page reports due next day, cramming overnight to study on exams that weigh 50% of the subject, doing projects on all subjects, doing homeworks at home and possibly bringing them to work too, fun fun fun!

I'm planning to buy myself a camcorder before the year ends. I don't know if I have enough since I'm also planning to buy a new computer and a flatscreen TV. Dad's gonna smack me for this. I'm such a spender when Christmas comes. But yeah, look at me ramble about Christmas when it's still summer... and fall is yet to come. Hmm... I'm thinking of going camping.

song of the moment: until the day I die by story of the year
mood: nemui- sleepy.

a blog. what am I missing?

2010-06-25T23:07:00.002-06:00

I'm going to have a very long weekend next week. They just canceled my shifts for the whole week. It's prior to the Canada day. It's a rare impromptu vacation. I've to carefully plan how to spend it. It might not happen again. I'm so happy! Oh $#!* this is going to hurt my paycheck. I guess I won't be able to buy Starcraft 2 this July.

You know, I've been thinking. Do I know what I want to do in life? That's right, roll your eyes. I think I know what I want to do, but is it fine to have a bit of doubt?

And you know what? I'm having this big mental block and it's not even funny anymore. I've told myself that I better write a story with at least 5 chapters. Or a story that makes sense.

It's not a total loss though. I managed to write a song.

So yeah, June's almost over. I was pushing my friends that we go camping this summer. I'm not really sure if it's even possible with their schedule. But it'll be truly epic if we did go camping. But I hope we won't starve. I've forgotten everything what I've learned back when I was a boy scout. Don't laugh.

song of the moment: Rosealia by Better than Ezra
mood: dauntless

a blog. with her touch

2010-05-09T00:00:00.000-06:00

I laugh and tear at the same time when I think back to my elementary days. There had been instances where I cried 'Mommy' during the Flag ceremony. During the early days of my first grade, I couldn't keep calm in the classroom when I know Mom's nowhere in school. Boy, I was a cry baby back then demanding that Mom SHOULD be in the school premises. If not, wah wah. Oh man, it's embarrassing, I know. But it's true. She had to stay over from 9-4pm in the canteen doing nothing but wait for me. And oh man, I am such a little boy back then. *cough* *cough* *mama's boy!* *cough* Who said that?! It makes you wonder how such a little boy could get attached to her Mom like that. Love. Need I say more?

When I hit 5th or 6th grade, I started getting irritated whenever Mom appears in school. I mean, I hated it when Mom SOMETIMES bring me lunch, when in fact, I had no money to buy food. What a brat. Take note: she brings me lunch very rarely. It's like I don't want her near me at all when I'm in school. Nice, huh? Put down your knives, ladies and gentlemen. But whenever I have a school project, she's always the person I 'hang-out' with. And when there's a need for an advance in my allowance, sweet heaven, don't get me started. Heaven forbid. Just as she hands me the money, I'm gone. Yeah, yeah. I'm awful. But while growing up, Mom's very important to me. I knew that it'd be impossible without her.

My Mom is at her golden age now. But look at how things are in my family. My Mom cooks three meals everyday. My Mom does the laundry. My Mom cleans the house. My Mom does gardening. My Mom studies. My Mom works. The list goes on. It's a given that she's tired everyday. But it's kind of cute that she still manages her Facebook. Despite her hectic schedule, Mom wouldn't be Mom if she doesn't give her attention to other people. She finds pleasure in helping other people. Mom is the eldest of seven. She loves my grandmother very much; Now, Mom takes care of grandma. She loves her brothers and sisters. If they need help or advise, it's like she's the first person that they go to. Moreover, people keep asking her for advise and stuff. And that's something that I look up to.

This past Tuesday, something happened on my way to work again. I don't know what's all these dramas when I go to work; more specifically, when I ride the bus to work. When the bus arrived, the door opened and I saw mom get off while I climb in. She was a bit happy to see me as she made her exit and mom rubbed my shoulder. I noticed how relieved she looked despite that she looked tired from work. During those short seconds, I felt very humbled. The bus left while I watched mom go home and I thought, God, help me as I leave my mom's providence for me.

I don't want to be a burden anymore. It wasn't fun to see Mom like that. Still she doesn't complain. And it pains me even more that she doesn't complain. I don't know, man, when I saw her tired, I yelled at myself 'Look at her! You gotta take extra shifts! You gotta prep dinner later! You gotta--' That's it. Mom needs me.

Have you ever wished to go back into the past? I did-- I wished, that is. I can say that I wish I could go back to the past and enjoy when mom solved every problem. It's when life was easy. No worries. No anxiety. No demand from society. When I was little, mom takes care of everything for me. And deep inside I knew that I was obnoxious and annoying towards my Mom. It's amazing how much sacrifice and how much time she spent with us. I can't beat such sacrifice in my lifetime. I could only repay her love and kindness in the future-- when Mom needs me to take care of her. I'll be there for her.

Isn't how this cycle is supposed to be? Parents take care of children. Then the children will take care of the parents. Seeing as how Mom took care of me, how she raised me, how she spent enormous time with me, how she gave me what I wanted, how she showed me her love, I don't see an excuse why I wouldn't answer her call.

To my future self,
take note.

Happy Mother's day.

song of the moment: A320 - Foo Fighters
mood: exhausted

a blog. that's a nosebleeder!

2010-04-29T04:22:00.005-06:00

If you had a nosebleed at work, what would you do? Would you: panic? keep your cool? shove a tissue in the nose? Ask for a break? Tell your boss? leave early? As for me, I did none of the above.

I was on the phone when I found out my nose was bleeding. I couldn't do anything else, but to stay on the phone. I couldn't tell the client that I was having a nosebleed, I mean... why would I? But it would be funny if I say 'I'm sorry, please excuse me for a moment as I'm having a nosebleed.' Hilarious. I put my head up and shoved my handkerchief on my nose. Then my voice started to sound funny because my nose was jammed. So I was stuck in the phone while making myself feel better. Good thing it stopped bleeding. But I wonder why my nose started bleeding again. Is it the weather? Is it stress? I wasn't really tired back then and it's spring. Usually, I get nosebleeds during winter.

Anyway, when I checked myself on the washroom, I didn't see anything wrong with my nose or my face. It looked normal. Still ugly.

Nosebleeds huh? I also have another story. I had a case of a nosebleed where I felt a chill while using the computer. I was typing on the keyboard and I sneezed. I grabbed my hanky and blew my nose. Then I put it aside. After a few minutes, my nose became runny, but I was so into typing the paragraph I was working on *cough* *cough* *nerd* *cough* and so I ignored my runny nose-- which is eww. I know, right? But it gets better... or worse... whichever. Anyway, when I finished typing, I reached for my hanky again and wiped my nose from my cold. On the lower part of my vision, I caught a glimpse of red on the cloth. When I looked down, my white keyboard turned red with a slobber of blood all over. I didn't know blood was already dripping while I was casually typing. Moreover, the snot that should've been on my handkerchief was, in fact, blood too.

Fun times.

I wasn't typing porn btw.

This past Tuesday was a dozy at work. It was all too tiring after work and I'm glad it's over. I'm enjoying my three day vacation.

song of the moment: Close by Paolo Santos
mood: I'm hitting the sack

a blog. what's up?

2010-04-15T04:00:00.002-06:00

Nothing much.

song of the moment: silence - the room
mood: insomnia kicking in

news. Hits from March

2010-04-01T04:32:00.001-06:00

and in other news...

total hits received for the month of March courtesy of statcounter.com: Blog Hina - 1503 | FruitsBlogsket - 8008 | SchoolRumblog - 127 | The Waltz Dramatic - 1752 | My Circumstances - 40 | Chonegai - 22

= received more hits compared to the previous month
= received fewer hits compared to the previous month

My comment on FruitsBlogsket:
I seriously thought March has been a bad month for FruitsBlogsket; I'm surprised that it managed to receive 8000+ hits despite the slow updates. Thank you very much for the visits and returning visits.

My comment on Blog Hina:
Thanks a bunch for the support and the hits, I am really happy with the hits the site received. It is really on a phase where the updates are slow. Nevertheless, I can say that Blog Hina looked good in March. There will be more Love Hina screenshots. It certainly can become better this April.

My comment on SchoolRumblog:
I can only blame myself for not putting much attention onto SchoolRumblog. The School Rumble series *manga and anime* is finished. But the way Jin-sensei completed the series is left open ended. Which means the series has a big potential for role-players and fanfic writers. And which also means that I need to write stories as much as Harima Crossing is concerned. This is gold! Thank you for the hits! Harima ftw!

My comment on The Waltz Dramatic:
The Waltz Dramatic *my fansite for Honey and Clover* looked stable during March as well. Not much to mention since I put the roleplay section on hiatus. Thank you for visiting The Waltz Dramatic, thank you for your support and your comments!

My comment on My Circumstances:
It has become hard to make updates on this fansite, *a fansite for His and Her Circumstances* due to the fact that and I am not really sure of the direction of mycircumstances (pun not intended). The manga is complete. And before I could continue, I need to know more of the manga (especially some chapters before the ending), so that further content can be added. This fansite is put on hold. But, nevertheless, thank you for all the people who has supported it ever since it was published in 2005.

My comment on Chonegai:
From my weird idea of merging Onegai Twins and Chobits -- thus allowing me to publish Chonegai due to my boredom of 2005 university sembreak. I had chickenpox that time, so I couldn't party outside with my friends. I was really sour because I had the chickenpox at the START of my sembreak. And I was only able to go out after a month -- the end of my sembreak. So yeah. Anyway, I'm not sure of the website's direction. This site is also put on hold. Thank you for the visits, purposely or by accident.

Ah, the memories of 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009.

btw, April 2010 is here! 8 more months 'til Christmas! *snickers*

song of the moment: Satellite by P.O.D
mood: sleepy

a blog. university admission with drumsticks

2010-01-25T00:28:00.004-06:00

The university application was such a drag. They told me to register online and said that they'd do all the work; I just had to pay for the processing fee and relax. But then it was too good to be true-- almost like a marketing scheme. In the end, I had to do all the errands. I should've seen it coming. Still, I remember that they said they were going to make the calls to my high school, have my transcript faxed from them, it's just that they said they were going to do all the work. But no.

Anyway, after all was finished, I'm just waiting to get my accepted. Yes. I haven't been accepted yet. But that shouldn't a problem since my grades aren't a problem. I'm just a bit concerned that I might be missing something. Although, I've given them the needed documents, including my high school and post-secondary transcripts from the Philippines. I am really counting on going to university this fall and be eligible for any scholarship. Money is tight. To be honest, the tuition fee is one of my major problems. And I don't want to apply for a student loan. Whatever.

I'm eyeing to get into University of Winnipeg.

How about other stuff about me that's going on? Well, there isn't much to tell... for now. Work's light and it's snowing outside. So... I wouldn't be spending time outside so much. Oh, I have a new pair of drumsticks. I haven't used them yet, since I can still use my old ones. And since these new drumsticks are still in perfect shape, I don't sense the urgency to use them yet.

The drumsticks were a gift from my fellow people in our church. I didn't see it coming. And it was to my delight since I was planning to buy a new pair. Thanks.

I started playing the drums since I was 8 or 9 and I could barely reach the bass pedal because I was really little... no problems with the clapper since all I did back then was just step on it. But until now, I don't have a drumset at home. Then again, I have an acoustic box set or a cajon. This 2010, it might be my bold move to buy an electronic drumset. I prefer the old fashioned drumset, however, there's no place to put them at home. Let's just see what this year would unravel.

song of the moment: Clinically dead for 16 hours by The Camerawalls
mood: warm

a blog. receiving my H1N1 vaccine

2009-12-19T01:41:00.003-06:00

I just had my H1N1 vaccine this past Wednesday. At first, my dad surprised me that we're going to get the shot in such a short notice, I cringed and scurried away from him -- was supposed to buy presents. It's not that I'm scared of needles. It's because I have plans for the day. But no. Resistance is futile. I must face the needle.

I'm used to needles. I've had them lots since I was little. And I've had them especially when I had Hepatitis A. My arm was scarred and it looked gross. The H1N1 shouldn't be any different. And they also said that the needles was little. In fact, when they shot me, I didn't feel it. When the nurse said the needle retracted, I was thinking that it got stuck on my arm. Idiot. I also asked my little sister, who was watching me, if the needle entered my arm. She said that it was inserted properly, but I still didn't feel any pain. Gasp! I've become numb to pain. Bleah, emo talk.

Then, I couldn't move my left arm for a day. I had a little headache in the middle of the night, but that was probably because of the cold temperature in my room. No other side effects; it was all good. My sister-in-law got a little fever. But overall, there weren't any serious side-effects on our part. New vaccines make me nervous.

Well, I guess we're all vaccinated against the H1N1 scare. Oh, except for my brother. He went to the mall far away just before my dad arrived. He ran away.

Christmas is around the corner. I can't wait for it. I just need my Saturday to be finished. Then off I go to buy presents. Ho ho ho. No, Christmas is about Jesus. Not Santa.

changelog: from Haloscan.com commenting to the old Blogger commenting system. Haloscan.com will start charging their services switching to the Echo platform.

song of the moment: Umaaraw, Umuulan by Rivermaya
mood: cold

a blog. missing friends

2009-11-07T02:14:00.003-06:00

I miss my friends in the Philippines. I thought I wasn't missing anything when I heard this song, and the I quickly closed my eyes. Before I knew it, tears started to fall. It's a song that reminded me of how I spent my times hanging out with my friends. Then it kind of snowballed into the past how we laughed every day and every night. That song triggered my homesickness. And now I'm convinced that I miss them really bad. I thought I'd never miss them since there's the internet, but it's still different longing to see friends in person.

Anyway, I'm okay now. I've performed some maintenance and some updates to the site. Three songs were down and I've uploaded them back... so the season one and season two songs are up and running in complete set. Also, I've uploaded the favicon back as it was missing for two weeks now. The old server never really made it back.

song of the moment: A320 by Foo Fighters
mood: a bit sad

a blog. topping the list?

2009-08-24T01:30:00.003-06:00

I'm not sure how it happened, but I think The Waltz Dramatic received enough hits to make it to the top list; when you Google search 'honey and clover fansite' or 'biggest honey and clover fansite', no. 1 result is The Waltz Dramatic - a Honey and Clover fansite. Anyway, I thank you very much for the hits. Even though The Waltz Dramatic isn't still a Google keyword, at least topping the list means something to me.

But wait it's not only The Waltz Dramatic who's under the limelight.

In typing 'biggest fruits basket fansite' or 'largest fruits basket fansite', FruitsBlogsket tops the list. Typing 'fruits basket fansite' on Google, places FruitsBlogsket among the topnotchers from the result *I think 2nd or 3rd*.

Typing 'school rumble fansite' on Google, places SchoolRumblog among the topnotchers from the search results.

Typing in 'Love Hina fansite' gives CYF Love Hina as the number one result in Google. Love Hina Project, which is a part of CYF Love Hina, trails on 3rd or 4th.

FruitsBlogsket, SchoolRumblog, CYF Love Hina, and Love Hina Project are among the few of my many websites. I made them back in 2006.

I'm not sure if the search results vary on geographic locations but I'm just glad that I've been able to put them where people can find them. And I'm kind of glad for this sort of an achievement.

I thank Blogger.com and the visitors who gave me the hits and comments! Thank you very much for the hits. And I hope you keep visiting.

song of the moment: A320 by Foo Fighters
mood: dazed

a blog. 18 days later

2009-07-16T23:02:00.001-06:00

Learning is a long process. That's an understatement. Learning is eternal. But I didn't say that learning isn't divided into stages. Which is why I'm happy to say that I've graduated from the stage of high school -- again. What will I do with two high school diplomas?

Anyway, I didn't know that I would receive the Sam Steele award and the prestigious Governor General Medal. People say that the medal is beneficial to earning scholarships or money grants, at least. It better be: I don't have money and I want to study post education as soon as possible.

Which brings us to my other business.

It's been weeks since my last update and I totally missed blogging big time. Let's just say that things got real busy after grad. I haven't been able to properly take time to write, because I'm occupied with ginormous work. With that said, I got a raise! Woo. God is sufficient.

A lot of my friends in school kept saying that they're going to travel when they turn 21. Awkward for me to hear, since I'm already 21. No, I'm not old.

They said that they plan to go to Japan or to Vegas. I, totally, want to join 'em. I just pray that I get the money. I'm saving for university and an airplane ticket. And it ain't going to be easy. Who am I kidding? I wonder if I'll ever be able to save up to $5000 from here on.

Possible. But it'll be a struggle.

these guys suggested me that Vegas or Japan run.

I'll miss you, Ana.

See you soon, Patrick.

Best wishes to you, Amber.

I've met some great guys and girls in Elmwood. I'll miss my short high school life in Elmwood. My life was fulfilling back there and I've become more confident with myself, thanks to the great teachers of Elmwood High. It's true, I thought that my mind was going to dry up and decay, but Elmwood made me smart again. It was a challenge and I'm glad I didn't succumb to my laziness, worries and the anxiety.

I almost forgot. The students made a promise: that we be giants in the world. So here's my promise: I won't let the complications, stereotyping, materialism, and all the crap in the world belittle me. I'll become a giant problem to my problems.

song of the moment: Careless Whisper by Seether *lol*
mood: uncomfortable

a blog. a firm hold

2009-06-21T00:37:00.000-06:00

I bought my dad a grill yesterday. I barely slept Friday night, but I didn't mind being woke up at 10 in the morning. Dad called and he was asking if I buy him a grill. and may I reiterate: HE WAS ASKING ME. HE DIDN'T TELL ME TO BUY IT. HE ASKED ME FIRST. And I know that for all the good things he has done to my life, he had the right to tell me to buy it. Instead, he asked first.

NO CRYING, BOY!

I'm betting I slept for four hours. Still I knew that my Saturday would be wonderful, so I stood up anyway. Besides, I also knew that I had to get my dad something this Sunday, good thing it's a grill. It's cheaper than a laptop.

Of course he wouldn't know that he's supposed to get a laptop this Father's Day. Don't tell him. Haha.

My dad's simple and humble. A lot of people don't know how smart he is. He's always helped me in math and physics and stuff and he drew me projects that were due next morning. He also taught my older bro. and he's waaay better than me in Arithmetic and Sciences. And people say that I'm good in Math. Hell no, I suck, and I'd usually cry to daddy when it comes to problem solving.

Not anymore. He's taught me well as well. Haha.

My dad's been valedictorian in high school and elementary where I barely excelled. I studied at the same elementary school as him and the same high school back in the Philippines. The teachers knew him.... they knew him well. Unfortunately, I didn't have the brain capacity like his when he was young. Sorry teachers, and yes, I'm his son.

Smart man. Strong ethics. How I wish to possess thee.

My dad has always been an outstanding worker. I lost count on the places where he worked, because they've been competing for his service. He worked as a teacher, engineer, project manager... erm... and more. I forgot. And he's bought a computer when there was no OS except DOS. He needed it for work. He's been doing complicated jobs ever since I can remember. Good thing I was a nosy snotty 3 year old kid back then, thanks to him, I was able to learn and use the computer using DOS at the age of 3.

He's hardworking and realizing his sacrifice would always make me pause. I mean, he had made so many sacrifice just to keep our spirits up; not to mention keep us satisfied. Settling here in Canada, hasn't been a walk in the park and we saw his dedication for the family when he went home coughing real bad. It was still cold outside and we didn't have a car yet. Sure he'd take the bus early morning, but everyday he would still need to walk a distance and wait for the bus. And my dad is very susceptible to cough and colds. Despite the cold weather, the very exhausting job, the pressure of the environment and the weariness, he didn't make a fuss. HELL NO. He didn't make any fuss. I can't stress this more, but yes, not a complain from his mouth. He didn't complain how lame his new *starting* job was and he didn't say anything that would regret him from leaving all our good stuff in the Philippines.

He was already sick, but he was still going to work because he knew what was on the line -- the impression of our future here in Canada. I know, I know. He needs to work even if he's sick, because we need food on our table. BUT... isn't that amazing? He's not supposed to do that.

My dad is also the chauffeur. I've known him driving us around since... ever. Back in the Philippines, he'd usually drive us, me and my bro, from home to the university -- cars are expensive, and no one dared to learn how to drive between us both. Anyway, everyday he'd drive for hours to and from work, pick us up and stuff, and so on. Dude, that's dedication right there.

As for games, oh yeah. He's one player. When we bought the Wii, oh boy. We had fun. My cousin commented that he wished my uncle was like him. He's still playing by the way.

My dad's also a bit lazy, I mean he doesn't go out much often. He also likes to eat. He said it makes him happy. Well, if eating and hanging around at home makes him happy, then problem solved. I'll say it's not so bad living a simple life-- not too many complicated thoughts and one can sleep easy too.

The biggest thing that would always make me stop to ponder is his amount of patience. If I look back and see all the stupid things I did when I was young, oh man, I get pissed at myself. But not my dad. He's a very patient man and how I AM THANKFUL for that.

I know that dad isn't getting any younger. And yeah, he's supposed to be taking it easy. I mean, I don't want to see him tired. He's supposed to relax... he's getting old. But life here isn't simple you know. There's some close relatives back home that need help and we need money and we're paying this house and the bills won't pay themselves and there should always be food on the table and the gas prices are hiking and and... It's these things that really make me teary eyed and I just thank my dad for everything and for the way he is. He's truly a gentleman. I envy his character and fortitude. It's also one of my goals in life to succeed after him and become better for him, so he would know that he did a heavenly perfect job raising me as a son.

You know what, it's Sunday and it's Father's day. I've been convincing myself to call in sick today. To tell you the truth, I wasn't planning to go to work. And while I was on my desk, I kept thinking that BEING AT WORK TODAY WASN'T RIGHT. How I wished to be at home and spend some quiet time with my dad. I just wanted to be at home with him. But I knew that it wouldn't make him happy knowing that I skipped work. I don't want my dad to be disappointed at me. Because I know that he did a lot of sacrifice and dedication. And for that, I love him.

Oh dear God, don't let him read this.

Anyway, Happy Father's day!

a blog. 111th!

2009-06-12T01:34:00.001-06:00

Kamusta ka, Pilipinas? Mabuhay ka sa ika 111th taon mong kalayaan! Mabuhay!

song of the moment: follow by Faspitch
mood: just resting

a blog. lullaby

2009-05-10T01:42:00.001-06:00

It was a quiet afternoon on my way to work. After boarding the bus, I slumped on my seat as I blew out a sigh thinking of the long day ahead. The bus pulled over after traveling a few distance. Then this boy and his mom boarded the bus. His mom put in their fare, the coins jingled, and they picked the seats in front of me. What happened next, I didn't see it coming.

The boy picked up the window seat and he laid down his head on his mother's lap. Then there was just a flashback that reeled in my head. I did the same thing when I was little; I would usually lay flat on the bus and rest on my mom's lap. And believe it or not, after seeing him do that, I was crying a bit. I was wiping my face, and I guess the lady behind me noticed me crying. I don't know what happened.

I guess I was sad. I was sad to face the truth that those days are over. I won't be able to go back to my childhood, the childhood days that I dearly love. And being as a young adult, I guess it's also sad to know that the transition is now happening; at my age, I shouldn't be depending on my mom -- or even dad -- anymore. I am most responsible for my actions. No more asking for allowance, those days are gone.

Halfway to work, I realized that I had to accept this fact. My mom's getting old and she's no longer at the age that would come and play tag. And I also have no more choice but to embrace these days. And I tell myself, I should be thankful for her sacrifice, blood, sweat, tear, patience and love.

I love my mom. I don't say that I love her face to face, but I do love her. And I hope she knows that I love her. I'm pulling myself to say 'I love you, Mom', in person but I just couldn't pull it. She's amazing. She does everything in the house, without bothering to wake me up. Even though it's noon and I'm still asleep, she'd finish every job without asking me for help.

I've never been disappointed with my mom. NEVER. How could I? Why would I? And the least thing that I'd want to happen is for my mom to be disappointed at me. I would never want that to happen. That's why I just swallow my uneasiness at work, where my job is so unpredictable. I don't want my mom or dad to know that I'm having difficulty working.

I know it's painful at first, but sometimes, there's some pain that goes deep and affect me. It would affect me to the point where I tend to be lazy and irresponsible. But nothing is more painful than your parents thinking that they've raised a disappointing son. I'm blessed that I haven't made them disappointed and I'm striving to do my best not to disappoint them in the future. Besides, my pain is nowhere near to the pain that I've caused them. I mean, it was a trip, a journey, a quest -- for the one ring -- for my mom to raise me. *laughs*

Even if there's no apparent big deal about Mother's day, Mom, I still love you.

song of the moment: ORT - Silent Hill
mood: rushing

a blog. chips chips chips

2009-03-17T14:32:00.003-06:00

After drum practice, I went to the grocery to buy something to eat; something that is Microwaveable. I'm a Microwavetarian. Although, being an omnivore isn't a bad thing either. Anyway, I was surprised to find these little fellas.

this is not an advertisement...
They're chips from the Philippines [talking about the top shelf]. I didn't know they had the quality to be exported from my beloved country. I used to eat these chips when I still had snot on my nose. But then they told everyone that they were the food of the devil, I mean, they were too unhealthy to eat. I think that was too exaggerated and we think that almost all chips are unhealthy. So it didn't bother me.

Normally I wouldn't see these products anywhere, but, hey, small world, isn't it? I forgot to ask for an autograph. Damn.

song of the moment: Brownman Revival - Walang Kasing Sarap
mood: bored

I will miss you, Francis "Kiko" Magalona

2009-03-06T09:15:00.003-06:00

It was all too surreal. I couldn't take it in. December of 2008, me and my mom were just talking about his fight against Leukemia. He was a fighter. Francis even posted pictures on his blog from the medical treatment. And then we watched his Francis M. video when he returned to Eat Bulaga, a noontime show, his home. I, for one, was happy to see him back in action. And it was then that I wished for him to keep fighting.

"I look forward to the pain as I know my journey is on full speed ahead. I will not be bold to say that without asking a favor from you all. PLEASE PRAY for me as I undergo treatment. Your prayers, as always, have sustained me. And am sure the Lord will listen to all our prayers. To His will I submit myself."
-from the blog of Francis Magalona | http://francismagalona.multiply.com

Two in the morning. I knew. I discovered. While I was delighted to discover that Quest Crew had won the America's Best Dance Crew season 3, my brother sent me a message.

Francis Magalona passed away.

Francis has been one of my childhood bridges. He was so patriotic; he loved the Philippines so much. He expressed this love through what he did best, through music. He was named the King of Philippine Rap, The Man from Manila, The Mouth, The Master Rapper. He was one of my influences in the music scene. Not only did he rap and write songs, Francis was a jack of all trades kind of person. That's why he's my idol.

He was a photographer. He was a host. He was an actor. He was a scriptwriter. He had his own clothing line (FMCC - Francis Magalona Clothing Line), and he was also a producer. His work involved his love for his country and his love for the Filipino children. He motivated everyone through his music. And he became an icon in the Filipino Music industry. But despite his fame, Francis M. never let it get over his head. He was a very humble person; very Simple. He shared his blessings and he helped young artists and rappers alike to pursue their dreams.

I sat on my computer quiet. My delight didn't matter anymore. I just realized that a childhood bridge has passed away. And something from my past started to reel in.

I remembered running. I was playing tag with my cousins outside. Yes, I was in my Grandma's house. And while we were playing, I remember hearing "Kaleidoscope World" being played too -- maybe it came from neighbors. From then on, it got stuck in my head.

Back in front of my monitor, I was in plain nostalgia and my hands on the keyboard stopped for a couple of minutes.

KALEIDOSCOPE WORLD - FRANCIS M.

(kaleidoscope.swf - 987kb)

So many faces, so many races
Different voices, different choices
Some are mad, while others laugh
Some live alone with no better half
Others grieve while others curse
And others mourn behind a big black hearse
Some are pure and some half-bred
Some are sober and some are wasted
Some are rich because of fate and
Some are poor with no food on their plate
Some stand out while others blend
Some are fat and stout while some are thin
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most

Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin' round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world

Some are great and some are few
Others lie while some tell the truth
Some say poems and some do sing
Others sing through their guitar strings
Some know it all while some act dumb
Let the bass line strum to the bang of the drum
Some can swim while some will sink
And some will find their minds and think
Others walk while others run
You can't talk peace and have a gun
Some are hurt and start to cry
Don't ask me how don't ask me why
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most

Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin' round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world

There's love in his songs. There's no violence. It's about Patriotism. He loved the Philippines and he encouraged Filipinos, young and old, to do so as well.

Thank you so much for your songs. Thank you for the inspiration. Thank you for everything. Kiko, we love you. God Bless and you will never be forgotten.

Francis Magalona (October 4, 1964 - March 6, 2009)

a blog. 2008 is so last year

2009-01-01T23:19:00.005-06:00

Christmas and celebrating the New Year is different here in Winnipeg. IMO, I prefer how I spend Christmas back in the Philippines. I'll probably rant all the way. Excuse me. But you know, I just love the days when we spent Christmas back in the Philippines. How relatives gather together and laugh. How friends drown themselves in a crowd in front of a lively concert. How I sit back outside and just relax in a cool and comforting climate while watching giant lanterns make their lights dance in techno.

I talked about this to my friend while we were in McDonald's. He told me that he got kicked out of his house. I was surprised. Family issues. And he isn't the type of guy to make a mess too. It's far-fetched and I probably got affected a bit too. He's my friend and it's almost Christmas. And so I was thinking that he would have to spend Christmas away from home.

When I asked how he felt, he wasn't sad or at least didn't look like it. The very essence of celebrating Christmas is celebrating it with your family and friends. Family is still important though. Now he couldn't. I told him that he could celebrate Christmas with us. He humbly refused and so I had nothing more to say. But still...

I told him how Christmas is so different in the Philippines. It's hard to convince them with words, so I told him that one Christmas, I'd take him and the others there. That is if I have the money.

Then I totally missed my home country more when I went off telling him how the streets were bright and colorful during December. Such a sigh to remember.

Yes, the streets are bright and colorful. Lots of people walking. But not like a you're stuck in a tough crowd. I mean the streets are lively and the atmosphere isn't boring.

It's like Christmas is the most awaited day there. There are Christmas songs in the radio, even on the streets as early as August. I think earlier than August too... And there was a point in my life when Christmas lasted until March.

It's like the Philippines changes when December shows up. The air becomes comfortably cold. It's not below zero but it's something that really soothes me up. There's food everywhere. Random people who are having barbecue outside would offer you to eat with them as well. The town becomes alive during the night. There are lanterns everywhere. Christmas decors and lights fill each house like there's some competition in one block. The place just lights up and it gives out a happy feeling.

I told you, I love Christmas in the Philippines, especially during the night. During the day, it could still be hot, because of our tropical climate. But night skies and the night temperature embraces me in a way I couldn't describe. It's something cold that would make me smile. And the skies look different too.

Food. I remember eating puto bumbong, a cake during Christmas, and the bibingka, another type of cake that I especially love. They're one of my favorites since I was little. Oh, man, I want to eat some now.

The market place becomes alive in the night as well. It's like a big party. The front of the church is one place to visit during Christmas.

Anyone I know would visit the mall as well. There's a lot of good stuff there that are cheap too. The quality isn't compromised, mind you. Exported goods, branded clothes, shoes, furniture, electronics, yep, they're cheap in the Philippines and they get cheaper in Christmas. It's unbelievable.

Parties, man! Family parties, family gatherings and house parties from friends! Oh God, it's priceless.

And after Christmas, what else? The coming of the new year.

More parties. Concerts. More stuff to buy. More food. And fire crackers. And did I forget to mention more parties? Haha, I miss my Philippines.

It`s just different here. My new home isn't bad. 2008 wasn't bad as well. It has been great. I had no serious problems at school. Work was slow. I've made many friends. I've had many experiences and encounters. I've learned and accomplished a lot of things. There were some challenges, but I solved most of them. We bought our new home. There was just a lot that I couldn't everything. 2008 wasn't boring at all.

I'm still a hopeless romantic though.

Do I have any New year's resolution(s)? Erm... does anyone still do new year's resolutions? I guess if there`s one thing I need to fix, I'll go and fix my sleep. I need more of it.

And here comes my favorite part. I usually go to the rooftop during the sunrise of the year and pray. Now it`s impossible since: A.) it`s freezing outside. B.) I couldn't climb our roof because of all the snow on the roof. C.) it's steep and I`d fall down because of the angle and the slippery snow -- but the impact wouldn't be so hard, since there`s a lot of snow below.

It has been a habit of mine to meet the first sunrise and just watch the sun make its way. Then pray.

I pray for a lot of things this 2009. I pray for good health. I pray for my work. I pray for my studies. I pray that my family and friends' would be safe. I pray for providence.

I'm sure there will be more blessings this year. 2009 will be great.

Goodbye 2008.

song of the moment: Uh Oh by Taken by Cars
mood: that's that

a blog. give and take

2008-11-04T23:31:00.001-06:00

I finished the day with a physics test and my Driver 5L Written Test today. I have a wonky feeling about my physics, but I passed my Driver Written test with flying colors. I passed it! Woohoo! I finally have my Learner License! I can drive! Which means, when I have to go pick up somebody, deliver something, or drive somebody to work, they'll be looking at me. What a privilege!

My cousin was extra happy. It's a 30 item test: 20 multiple questions and 10 sign questions. He had 6 mistakes and he passed. However, 7 mistakes could've failed him and he was like "Ahhhh..." relieved -- like just making in time to the bathroom from an awful loose bowel movement. I'm just happy I passed. We're just happy we passed.

I believe there's only one person who failed the written test. But it's not a problem if you fail it.

I've finally organized my first band in school. We're called Over the Top and we're thinking of playing at the talent show. I have a mixed sensation about it. It's true that we'll get a fair amount of exposure and experience if we play at the talent show, but I can't help think that it's a small venue. I don't really care. I just want to play. And so does everyone in the band.

left to right: Alex, Andy, some bother, Harry and Will

I am probably the shortest guy in the band. And the oldest in the band -- but I hope I'm the wisest too. I've already had a long experience playing in a band (combo) and I've already been involved in four bands already, not including Over The Top. And so finally, I've been able to compose two songs. Wee. Wow, and now I think I'm turning corny for writing both of them as love songs.

November is here and forecasts tell that there will be snow on the weekend. WHAT?! No freakin way. So fast. I'm not ready for winter yet. In fact, other provinces in Canada have already experienced snow fall. I need a new jacket and we need to clean the roof first. I can't remember if last year's winter arrival was also this quick.

song of the moment: The Blues by Switchfoot
mood: haaaappy.

a blog. FALL!

2008-09-22T23:16:00.004-06:00

It's official. Fall shall befall upon us in Winnipeg. Yep, September 22 marks the end of summer and the start for the leaves to fall. And pretty much soon, Winter will come. And when winter comes, Christmas comes! But before Christmas will come, this November -- and I am praying -- I should have my Beginner's Driver's License. Driver's Ed will start in Elmwood at the 30th.
Just when I thought I'd only have 4 subjects this semester, but noooooo-- my Dad has to embarrass me in front of my younger cousins who are also taking up driving. I was thinking of taking driver's ed the next sem but noooooo-- I'm the older one and I should SET AN EXAMPLE? Riiiiight. Haven't I made examples in the past? Like, I don't know... not skipping MUCH in school, making it on the honor roll, having 11 academic excellence certificates, free money, seeing me clean the hous, prep supper, babablah blah blah.

Cough cough.

I have Psychology on my 3rd period. And I've learned about the effects of "Birth Order". You know, it's how birth order affects the attitude of an individual. The firstborn usually gets to be responsible. The youngest gets the attention. If one's an only child, he / she get to be responsible and the attention. But what if one's a middle child, say like me?

My older brother has always been the genius type. He learned the alphabet when he was two. He memorized the flags of the world when he was 3. Or was it the other way around? And he's the mathemagician. Anyway, he certainly wowed my mom and dad, until now.

My younger sister gets to have a lot of stuff too. And she's still taking the attention.

What about me? The middle child? Well... I learned to play the drums on 3rd grade elementary. I was able to use the PC, DOS mind you, at the age of 3. Be the first in the family to layout a newspaper. Yadda yadda. And voila. Mom and Dad thought I was just normal. They say that Middle children are deprived of attention.

Now, I know what you're thinking. Wow, this guy's suffering from A.D.D. MMmm-nah. I'm not. I'm just ranting. And I think it's funny. I laugh at myself to be writing this kind of crap. To be honest, seeking attention isn't my priority.

It's just that, sometimes parents forget your achievements when you pull off a shortcoming. One mistake and you're back to being a rascal. Making a mistake beats any magic spells. Poof, all your good deeds have suddenly been forgotten. -- Certainly not for the long term -- however, it makes children wonder why they couldn't please mom and dad, right? And sometimes I think that bad decisions are more noticeable. It's hard. There are times when we work hard and then one embarrassing event drags us to the very bottom. Haha, I'm not mad at my parents. I'm just ranting at the reality.

Wow, this cold isn't going away. I hope it doesn't turn into a flu.

song of the moment: Ingat ka by Silent Sanctuary
mood: cough cough blow

a blog. [insert adjective] day

2008-08-10T00:48:00.001-06:00

Saturday is unbelievable.

I couldn't sleep early Saturday morning. 9 o'clock, they pulled me out of bed. I got four hours of sleep for a full day's work: ANYWAY, 9 o'clock and my eyes are still blood-shot. I can see veins under my eyes. I was aware of the date, still I insisted to stay in bed. RESISTANCE WAS FUTILE.

It's moving time.

Yes, we've found our new home and we've decided to move this Saturday. I started carrying heavy-loads and furnitures, placing them around the house, *tables, sofas, couches, beds, mattresses, traveling bags, chairs, end tables and so on*. We had one pickup and we had a lot. In the end we made three trips. Fortunately, we were able to finish carrying, placing and damaging surfaces around 3. *oh well, it's our house anyway*

We're not done yet. My hands are starting to hurt.

We went to Superstore and bought food. We went to Value Village and bought a keyboard that turned out nothing but crap and we can't have it replaced *wasted 6 bucks*. We went to Dollarama and bought hooks, some stuff and especially a paintbrush to paint over the 'damage' during the move. It's amazing how I kept up with the pace, and my lunch was just five spoonful of rice.

My body's craving for sleep and my room's a mess. My room's like an abstract art or a dumpster because of my stuff thrown everywhere. I almost tripped on my XBox. And I found my earphones that I thought I lost a year ago.

We had casualties. My dad misplaced his expensive cellphone and I misplaced my cellphone that I borrowed from my older bro. Lucky.

6PM we had practice for Church tomorrow. The Bible study ended around 9PM. We went back to he apartment to fetch more stuff around 10. It's official, my arms were literally shaking and I couldn't stand up properly. It felt good. I can still go for it.

I'm being blamed for misplacing my brother's cell. Although, I entrusted my laptop together with my cellphone with to my sister. Yep. It's my fault all right. Good thing my room has a lock on it, I'm going to be strict from now on. All my stuff will be kept there.

My fingers are ready for damage this Sunday, if ever I'll be using my acoustic box. But Pastor said to use the drums. I'm happy.

We've lost a lot of stuff during the move. I really think we're not prepared to move out of the apartment yet. But I'm sure the things we've misplaced will turn up eventually.

* Sorry, I'll add the smileys later. Tired. *smiles*

wow, it's almost two in the morning.

COMING SOOOOOON. after I fix my room. and find that phone.

song of the moment: Requiem by Hale
mood: don't ask. smiles.

a blog. the summer evacuation

2008-07-21T13:14:00.004-06:00

I'm back. Hwooh. I'm back! It's summer break and I'm loving it. But I think I've enjoyed it too much, because I haven't made any update. That short hiatus? oops. Sorry, it's just my natural instinct to be lazy... uh, extra lazy during summer break. Speaking of summer break, my body clock's out of tune. Totally. Yes, yes. Summer break means nightlight savings time for yours truly. I mean, I wake up at 4 in the afternoon and sleep at 4 in the morning. I don't drink. I don't smoke. I sleep late. I am such a healthy kid.

from left to right: some smiling retard *boku*, my cousin and my other cousin.
SUMMAH! WAAAAH! [THE BELL RINGS. EVERYONE THROWS PAPER IN THE CLASSROOM AND RUNS OUTSIDE THE SCHOOL] It's like New Year without the kisses and fireworks... and karaoke... plus it's done during the day. You know, I've been waiting for summer break, since first day of school.

I'm so much too very surprised really during day of high school awarding. You know, where they award students for doing something excellent? I've taken home 13 awards including free money. 13 awards-- not bad, huh? but I wasn't the high school Valedictorian. It's all right. I wasn't Valedictorian because I'm not graduating yet. This school year I'll be graduating. FINALLY! FINALLY! FINALLY!

left to right: Phil, some guy who ruined the picture, and Harrison.
to the defense of the guy who ruined the picture: 'it was windy.'

I just realized. I won't see two of my friends next year. They've graduated! DESPITE HAVING 13 AWARDS, I AM FALLING BEHIND! And I didn't even go to their grad party. Wow, what I did is almost a crime. At least, I have their number.

Oh yeah, we've found a big house. We're going to move this August.

song of the moment: Glasgow Kiss by John Petrucci
mood: fingers 'r achin'

LOSING MY HEAD NOTICE

2008-06-06T00:15:00.005-06:00

Hey y'all, I'm still alive. Exams are coming up and things are tight for me right now. For the next two weeks, I won't be going online and I need to finish everything. THE WALTZ DRAMATIC is not going anywhere and is here to stay. There will just be a short hiatus and I'll be definitely back with some fansite updates for everyone. The hiatus will not be exclusive for this site, but for my other fansites / sideprojects as well. Here's my FINALS list and I will keep you posted:

- Foods Final presentation.
- PreCal Provincial and Finals.
- Foods Final exam.
- Accounting Finals
- Applied Math Finals.
- Chemistry Unit Test.
- Chemistry Finals.
- Launch of TEENSIDE Chronicles

a blog. I'm happy this day's over

2008-05-15T21:07:00.005-06:00

Sorry for the two week absence. I admit. I'm lazy. [FOR LAUGHING OUT LOUD! I'M SHOCKED! I- I AM APPALLED! I AM SPEECHLESS! YOU?! LAZY?! THIS SOMETHING NEW FOR THE MASSES!] 'Kay, so I guess, I'm getting lazier. Which might be a contradiction to my next statement, because I have just attended my first community service in Winnipeg. [Wow. Yes, that is amazing. I think we might expect a call from the Prime Minister any minute now].

I've been doing community service before in the Philippines. I was a boy scout. [snorts. chuckles. rolls on the floor. laughs] It's the truth. Sometimes, annually we travel to Porac, Pampanga to help and give gifts to our Aeta brothers and sisters.

I've been there and it wasn't all bad-- except when you're taking a bath on a small stream - y'know - brushing your teeth, cleaning yourself up on that little stream of water, while two feet away from you, one from your crew is peeing on it.

Ah yes. What a wonderful world.

Anyway, we went to the Mennonite Brethren Church for our community service. Our service wasn't about religion. It's their Volunteer Appreciation Day and we were the volunteers for their Volunteer Appreciation Day. Volunteers helping Volunteers. M-hmm. Yeah, it's not that weird. *thinks: Helpful Helpers Helping the Helpless.* Basically, we helped set up tables, chairs, hand out food for the volunteers (all of them elderly), clean the kitchen, dry the flatwares / cutleries, and then clean up the place by putting back the 240 chairs and 24 round tables we've just set up. [And so?] Nothing.

It's not all bad to serve the community. Plus, community service counts as an achievement for the student portfolio. I mean, before one graduates from High School, you'll be interviewed by a board of students and teachers. They'll ask all sorts of question regarding dealing with problems and regarding the student's achievements. And may I stress it again: ACHIEVEMENTS. One achievement from Four years of High School? Come on.

Community service also adds up points on a resume. And Summer's fast approaching.

In the end, I think we did a good job. How can I tell? Well it's not that we didn't receive any negative remarks from the staff -- it's the opposite in fact -- I'd say it's because we didn't mess anything up. We finished each task quickly. It was a productive day. Plus, we had free lunch. [yes, without the free lunch, you won't go.] *looks away* That's not true.

EVOLUTION?

No, no, it's not about Darwinism. It's just about this blogsite upgrading from version 1 to 2 or some of its parts leveling up. For example, I can draw Hagu. Somehow.

well it was just a quick sketch.

And I was just planning out things while I was away. Just stay tuned and I'll pass on The Waltz Dramatic's new thingamajigs.

song of the moment: I don't Want to Come Back Down From This Cloud by Bush
mood: so-so

a blog. I need brain

2008-04-30T22:20:00.000-06:00

Yesterday was a killer day. My brain died because I had two mind crunching, nose bleeding, hand shaking, eye burning tests. Alas, they've figured out my numerical weakness. And it's not even the provincial exams yet.

I really believe that my mind got exhausted after the test. I was dragging my feet back home. I went straight to bed early and my parents were going mental because they rarely see me sleep early.

This morning, I couldn't get out of bed. It felt like I was having a hangover. I wasn't drunk yesterday. I can't believe what was happening either. My ears were ringing and my head was twitching. I craved for silence and I wanted to sleep some more. It was exaggeration in progress. I know, but the truth is: it's the truth. What else is there to say?

The one thing I hate about an excuse is its nature. Have you heard someone say 'excuses, excuses' which sounds like 'ugh, whatever...'? What good is an excuse? I'm starting to wonder if an excuse is a bad thing.

Sometimes you can't get to explain what happened because it sounds like a typical excuse, right? Worse, you become cornered where you can't even defend yourself.

'So what's your excuse?' Gah, I hate it when people ask me that. Why can't they say, 'what happened?' or 'did it hurt?' or whatever that doesn't involve an excuse.

Oh man, tomorrow's going to be one helluva marathon. Could I possibly miss school where I don't worry of catching up?

I just slept all day and they woke me up in the evening. I almost missed my cousin's birthday. Oh sure, miss school, but I can't miss my cousin's birthday. Well, my body went back to normal this evening, so I was good to go. Besides, I just eat at birthday parties, unlike at school.

When I got there, my cousins were playing this online game. I wanted to play with them.

Problem is, we don't have a router yet.

I have to hook up all four computers at home, so that everybody in this house will be happy. And I can get to play the online games I want. And and... And the world would become a better place. I want to play that game on my new desktop, because it's the right PC for the job. It's still CLEAN and not connected to the net yet and I really need a router so bad. I'm saving for something else. Yes. Save. I asked my dad for money but he suggested the same thing to me.

He's rich but I don't know why he can't buy me one. We just have a lot of expense, I guess. Better start saving still.

song of the moment: Hinahanap- Hanap kita by Rivermaya
mood: sighing

a blog. spring break over

2008-04-06T23:58:00.003-06:00

Hey what the fudgenuggets? Spring Break is over. That was one of the fastest week I've ever lived. One day I was talking about the start of spring break and now it's just... *looks at previous blog entry* so... what happened? I pretty much stayed at home and tried to catch up with the things I missed. I went to birthday parties. I was able to exercise. And eat a lot. I grew another pimple. I took screenshots of Fruits Basket *from a selected 2256 screenshots*. I was able to MANUALLY resize and MANUALLY enhanced each screenshot . I was able to find a PSP for me. I discovered that I might've a potential refund from work and taxes and stuff *MONEY! WAH! I NEED THE REFUND SO BAD!*. I did homework, bleagh. I was able to draft something for my e-novel projects. Hmm... but we didn't get to go the cinema, drat. Despite everything, I need one more week off! Haha. Honestly. I'm serious.

HAIR! HAIR! HAIR! BOOGER! HAIR! HAIR!

I've began to wonder: can I grow my old hair back? I'm starting to get tired of my spikey-doo. Maybe I do want to grow my hair back. I used to have long hair, but migration got in the way. Why you ask? Well because everyone knows that terrorists aren't allowed to enter another country, not to mention the airport. Having long hair, they said I look like a terrorist. O-kay.

At first, I just shaved my goatie, which is also a huge sacrifice for your information. So I had no facial hair. Just clear and plain old person with a long hair. However, shaving the goatie was still short. And the weird thing is people started calling me "Ma'am" for it. Yeah. The cashier at McDonalds, the cashier at the mall, the waiter at MY FAVORITE restaurant, they called me Ma'am.

No kidding.

How can they mistake me for a girl? In the end, I was PRESSURED to cut my hair. One reaon I can't grow it back is because, I work. And my boss isn't particular of it. Still, maybe I should try it.

song of the moment: First of Summer by Urbandub
mood: writing with bloodshot eyes

a blog. in my head

2008-02-25T23:08:00.003-06:00

I'm so irritated this Monday. I'm starting to wonder why I get so much work at school. I know it's normal to get homework everyday, but is it impossible to have a simpler life for me. Thus, I have a question, who are the happiest people in the world?

My classmates call me smart -- not that I'm bragging by the way -- and if what they're saying is true, is it the smart inside me that is bringing me down? Thus brings to a question: are smart people happy? Certainly 'smart' people have a complicated perspective of life. They're always worried of the future, pondering about problems, thinking of answers nobody asked, get irritated by school work that other people might just disregard. In the end, their excess thinking emits an opposite direction which negates happiness. *stop talking crap.*

Knowledge is indeed a benefit. It's common sense that someone who is knowledgeable would be doing a better job than someone who has no experience of it. Although, even if the contrary is possible, I'm still riding shotgun with a real driver than someone who doesn't know how to drive.

I have a feeling...

I guess it would all come down to one's philosophy then -- how we look at life? Corny, isn't it?

How 'bout if I go stupid? Are 'stupid' people happy? *that sounds stupid enough to make you stupid, stupid* Argh, that homework really worked me up. I'm always having a homework, that I couldn't even enjoy staying at home.

It's like this: I want to enjoy my 'after school' as much as possible. Right? I laugh thinking if it's possible. I guess, I became really bored doing nothing but homework for the last months. I wasn't enjoying much. Despite landing me decent grades and earning a position among the top students of Elmwood High, I forgot working on my interests: basketball, writing, photography, art, drawing, anime, manga and playing videogames. It may sound like a child's play, but we can't judge other people's interests and from where they get bait for ideas. Inspiration.

Oh man, I really sound like I'm having a boring personality, talking anything that's about academic worries. It sucks ass. *Yaaaaaaawn* Shadap.

Student life, huh? Hard work is priceless, but the fruit of hard work is more expensive.

Oh yeah, I almost forgot, we are officially one year in Canada. Woohoo.

song of the moment: Paris by Chicosci
mood: irritated

a blog. and it's only the start

2008-02-13T23:17:00.004-06:00

Sigh, yesterday was the worst. This winter is killing me. The storm yesterday gave me a headache and it was my first experience to wait outside under the cold.

I forgot my textbook yesterday and I wasn't able to do my homework. I did it during lunch hour and rushed my work. But still, I wasn't able to finish it. That homework cost me my lunch and I was hungry. I skipped lunch and finished the rest of my subjects.

After 3:30, I went to Artspace to attend my film course. We studied Lumiere Films, 1 minute 1 shot, no cuts no dialogs. And after that, we were told to make our own story.

Despite the headache, exhaustion and hunger, I was able to draw out five stories. Other people drew up their interesting stories. In the end, I picked my top one and, I'm really thankful that they love my idea. I just hope I expect my film would be interesting.

Anyway, after two hours of discussion, I ran downstairs and to the bus stop to catch the bus. I wanted to test my body how it works in the cold. Again, I was hungry, my head was spinning, and it was cold. *but I insisted not go home yet* I waited for 15 minutes because the bus got late. Yes, the wait was a joy ride. I thought my nose was bleeding from the cold. But fortunately, it was just snot.

Fortunately?

I rode the bus to go to the local mall and find the stuff I wanted to buy. It was seven and the temperature was dropping. I hurried and the next ride home is drawing to a close. It sucked ass when I only found one of the two things I wanted to buy. I checked my watch and there was still time to switch malls. But I thought again because of the temperature and the distance. It's chicken feed to do it during summer, but I ended up redoubting my decision. I chose not to, so I waited for the bus.

I didn't know where the exact place to wait. I just wrote the bus stop number and didn't actually set foot on it. So I went outside the mall to go see. I spent a bit of time walking and running looking for it under the cold. When I found it, there was 10 minutes left for my ride to arrive.

I didn't think of going inside to avoid the cold because the mall was considerably far. Walking back would cost me about 4 minutes and I was really tired. So I chose to wait inside the shed. It was still cold by the way. So I waited.

Hungry, dizzy, tired, weak, and weary, with a dab of headache, I waited. I looked around but no bus. I looked around once more and I chanced upon an electronic screen that flashes advertisements. I found out that it was -13C, which isn't that bad I thought. Oh, well. The wait was still on.

Finally, when the bus arrived, a smile was written on my face. I was relieved but my headache didn't tone down. I hurriedly got inside to warm myself. But then the bus didn't move right away. Right. Ten more minutes?

After the ten minutes of waiting inside the bus, it finally moved and I almost puked. My woozy state just got worse and I officially wasn't feeling fine. I had to go home fast. Too bad, I'm riding the bus.

Eventually, I endured.

When I arrived home, I slowly walked to open the door. My head was throbbing and the world was spinning. I wonder how I didn't collapse on my way home.

I just wanted to sleep. Sleep. Sleep. Sleep. It was in my mind. But I skipped lunch and I only had a small breakfast. So I had to eat before I sleep. They were watching American Idol, but I didn't bother. Going to sleep right after eating is a no no. I stayed up for a while, in my ill condition. I just told everyone that I had a headache, but the truth is, I felt like I was going to collapse.

Tuesdays and Thursdays are tough. School + Film is one heck of a routine for a normal student. Especially when there are homeworks and exams everyday.

And now that it's almost Thursday, I have to do this again. But without going to the local mall. What the hell was I thinking?

song of the moment: Oshime by Nuncyspungen
mood: uneasy, nervous, mind exhausted

a blog. my recessive January

2008-01-25T01:00:00.000-06:00

Wow *looks at the last entry*, I mean. Wow. Has it been a while? Obviously. So... what would my excuse be?

I find blogging hard these days. Not because, blogging is hard, but the reason is: my life is becoming insane. This is my first 2008 entry by the way. Going back to my point, right now I've too much things in my mind that I need to clear up.

It's freaking cold here in Winterpeg -- Winnipeg, I mean. The winter is at its peak during January and February. If you're planning to go here, you need to prepare for the cold. I tell you, it's unbelievable.

Last Feb.24 and after exiting the airport, I was blown away by the negative temperature. Literally, I freezed for a few seconds and I thought my nose were going to bleed. And then, I said to myself... "OMG! I'M GOING TO LIVE HERE FROM NOW ON!"

Still, it's a fun sight to see kids play on the snow. I wonder how they do it. And yeah, it's a different experience for me when it was snowing; living in the tropics for 19 years, mind you.

Yeah, I've tons of paperwork to do. It's funny, they're not for school. They're for my life projects. It's the reason why I've been absent from blogging for a month. Not to mention, I'm currently blogging knowing that I have a History, Math11, Pre-Cal exam waiting in line. And there's also the Basics of Filming that I'm attending, *brought to you by Winnipeg Film Group dyaraan*. Hope I won't have work this Saturday. Anyway, I don't have classes on Friday. *takes a deep breathe* So there.

offTopic: Expect some changes on this fansite.

song of the moment: Pop Machine by Eraserheads
mood: cough cough

a blog. I miss you guys

2007-12-25T16:56:00.000-06:00

What can I say? I'm pretty thankful for experiencing a White Christmas here in Canada. Although, honestly putting my feelings into words, I don't feel happier unlike the previous years. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy this Christmas. It's just that, I miss my friends and I miss my relatives in the Philippines. There's something missing, right?

It's funny, when I was in the Philippines, I felt the same way; missing my relatives living in Canada. I wonder if this problem could be helped.

Why do people have to leave? I still ask myself.

Opportunities? Looking for a better life?

Did we have a boring life to start with?

It's not a walk in the park living in Canada. It's true that there are many opportunities here. Having able to establish a good background in the Philippines would give an advantage. My mother told me that I have a great future here. She may be right. Judging from my accomplishments, my grades, I may land on a scholarship. I could be onto something big. I wonder if I could offer the same magic in the Philippines. It may sound like I'm showing off, but I've been able to stand out in class. Back at home, I'm just the commoner. I don't know. What kind of appreciation am I missing?

Money is also an issue. Honestly, dollar or peso, the same principle applies. We have to pay bills. We have to buy food. We have to save and so on. Sometimes, I just wish that my relatives in the Philippines would live here so that they could appreciate living here like we do. Plus, it's easier to just send the money across the street, rather than sending it abroad with all the extra fees and stuff.

Oh yes, sometimes, I just wish we'd all be together in one place. One big happy family.

So what happened? I'm bothered.

I now know how Christmas looks like here in Canada. No offense, the streets are bare. I could only see a few Christmas lights outside. Who would dare venture outside? It's freezing. I couldn't picture myself walking from house to house so I could sing Christmas carols. I'm sorry, but I just can't. That's the reality. But it could be different downtown where there are more people wandering the streets. I wonder what they're thinking. Anyway, I remember my Christmas last year. It was fun. There were lights all over the street. It was also cold. I spent a lot of time laughing with my college buddies and friends. It was priceless.

Until now, I'm puzzled what happened. Why did they have to move? What made us move? Is it for the sake of reconciliation with those who had moved? Then, what about the people who would be left behind?

It's really obvious. I miss you guys. Does it have to be this way? I'm really selfish, am I not?

Despite of all the rants I'm making, it's not all bad. I've made friends here as well. We're not that close, but I'm really working on it. I also have some relatives here. I have my cousins who left the Philippines years ago. Finally, we have some catching up to do. I'm not alone.

Christmas here isn't sad. It's just... different.

Yes. Different.

Well, here I am. Still standing. Still smiling.

song of the moment: 1979 by Smashing Pumpkins
mood: chilled

Happy Holidays

2007-12-22T21:18:00.000-06:00

I'd like to take this opportunity to thank everybody who visited my humble website. Seasons Greetings and Happy Holidays!

song of the moment: O Come All Ye Faithful by Josh Groban
mood: settled

a blog. marking the starting line

2007-12-05T14:51:00.000-06:00

I feel like my December's going to be a very exciting one.

A picture of the sunrise.

changelog:
- uploaded Kazenagi (Suga Shikao) song to INSERT SONGS : SEASON TWO. Check the lower right sidepanel.

song of the moment: Tikman by SugarFree
mood: worried

we all have excuses

2007-11-23T01:46:00.000-06:00

It's funny how things turned out at school this week.

There wasn't much activity, so I thought I might as well skip and do some part- time work. When I came back the next morning, I finished the few school work that was waiting for me. Again, I thought of skipping the next school day and just stay in bed. But when I returned to class the other day, WHAPAK!-- in your face, jedd. Four school projects to finish in a week. [happy?] I never said I wanted that MUCH. Why did they hand out projects at the same time? It's a conspiracy.

My classmate noticed that I looked very lonely for the past few days. I don't know if she's right. Maybe I am lonely. Or stressed? Perhaps, heart broken? [that's old] I know. I don't care. But thinking about having so much paper and graphic work is depressing.

For me, writing isn't that hard. But I tend to be really sensitive when it comes to drawing. I'm re-learning drawing, since there's a new trend on it. I started drawing when I was just little (usually on walls and my mom didn't appreciate it much... too bad...) and I kind of grown a knack of it until elementary. I stopped drawing when I entered high school. No one's that interested, and I lost interest as well. Although, I was blown away by my friend's artsy sketchbook when I entered the university. From then on, I tried to light up my passion for drawing once more. [how dramatic]

So far... I'm struggling.

Speaking of excuse: whenever my boss asks me if I'm available on a particular date for work, my excuse is I have school. When my teacher asks me for some excuse, I say work. On the internet, I say school and work. [no kidding] Yes. No kidding. People understand.

I was able to draw a character for my webproject. I modeled him after me, but he's way off my character. He's a new character, a minor one, for Do What Eye Tell You. All I can say is, he has a violent history. [that drawing looks nothing like you] here here.

Anyway, despite my school projects nagging my very humanity, I'm still confident I'll be able to finish my Kimikiss website before Christmas.

changelog:
- addition of five Christmas songs: Away in a Manger (Hayley Westenra), God Rest ye Merry Gentlemen (Orange and Lemons), Let it Snow (Imago), Season of Smiles (Itchyworms), Silent Night (Spongecola). Check Hachikuro radio @ the lower right sidepanel.

song of the moment: Absorbing Man by Parokya ni Edgar
mood: itchy

a blog. erm... about Kimikiss Pure Rough... er Rouge

2007-11-14T18:42:00.000-06:00

Ugh, crap. I found myself in a bit of a pickle, regarding posting Kimikiss Pure Rouge materials on this fansite. Arrgh, I just came to a quick decision -- 'took just a snap -- make a Kimikiss anime fansite. Woorei. [what a very lively hooray] I know. What just happened? [GAAWWD NOT ANOTHER ONE!!]

song of the moment: Seneca Falls by The Distillers
mood: cold

a blog. the irony! the irony!

2007-11-11T23:44:00.000-06:00

Wow. I've been away quite a while from the internet. It's just... wow. And funny. Back in the Philippines, my High School life was hell. Regarding my class standing, I had the lowest mark. Guess what? I was able to study in UP Diliman. I had more time to do other stuff -- other things not related to school.

Here in Canada, High School life is relatively lighter. I was able to make it to the #1 spot overall Grade 12, after my first term. But I couldn't find time to do work away from work and school. [I'm confused] Me too. [weird...] Me too.

Anyway, moving away from my selfish interests, I did find time to attend my Kuya Jason and Ate Stephanie's wedding. That's before I went to see the doctor. This persistent cough and cold must go. All sickness must go. [no, duh] I wanted to stay at home and rest. But it was embarrassing not to go, because they made a visit during my birthday. So we went out with my cold in the middle of the freezing night. By the time we got there, there was no reserved seat for me in our destined table. Ahahayyy... I just used my younger cousin's seat. Besides, he didn't make it; he's out working.

An autistic child, Ate Marie and Kuya Marvin
Winter's coming. I don't do well in cold weather. My flu is already a proof. But I guess, things won't be so bad. It's all part of adjusting and adjusting some more. I remember what my History teacher said, when someone arrives on a new environment, expect him or her to be sick for a while. He or she will eventually get used to it because the body has to take time to build an immunity. Coming from a history teacher and not from a Biology teacher, I find it amusing.

Well, I just hope my body won't take... like... a year to develop an immunity.

SIYANGAPALA.

I'll be reviewing Kimikiss Pure Rouge on this fansite. I'm pretty confident that I'll be able to post screenshots, summaries and thoughts as well. I have my eyes on this anime. FYI, the people who made the Honey and Clover anime are the same people who's in charge of the Kimikiss anime.

changelog:
- Yamada has a new blog entry.

song of the moment: Prinsesa by Teeth
mood: feeling perky

random thoughts 2

2007-11-01T22:22:00.000-06:00

They just issued our Go-Card today. It's an ID and sort of a bus pass -- I think -- in one. So... I have two high school IDs. Goody goody gumdrops.

It's November and I'm supposed to remove the hiatus on four other fansites. However, I find myself stuck regarding what updates I should add to each.

Yeah, cough. I'm still sick.

Dance Dance Revolution pads are expensive. Holy cow! I was just curious and asked how much they are. They're $70. I was expecting them to be around $50.

I bought a new 20' Flat TV. Now, I'm broke.

Tomorrow's Monday. My History project is due tomorrow. There's another one for Pre-Cal, but I already have an idea of how to present it. It's just that, I hope my guess for the topic is correct. There will be two exams tomorrow, both of them Maths. ~waargh!

I missed church today.

I just realized, if I finish my high school here, I'd have two high school diplomas. Wew.

changelogs:
- Added Dramatic and Fugainaiya instrumentals @ Hachikuro Radio. Check the lower right sidepanel and browse the playlist.

song of the moment: All Under Heaven by Faspitch
mood: feelin a-ok

a blog. took me half an hour to write this

2007-10-22T21:04:00.000-06:00

It's the start of another week. I was late on my first period. Woh boy, I have a bad feeling about this. Well you know, if I just started the week wrong, it might end up wrong.

I've just started a few e-novels. [the crowd goes WHAT?!] I know. [a few? what are you? stupid?] I hope someone would read them when each chapter is ready. [Aww, screw this! Run everybody! Run! Save yourselves!] There's a reason why I made a few. I won't tell the reason yet, because I don't want to start spreading something that might not be true in the end. Plus my work is still on its early developments. [like anyone cares] I'd chuckle for that. I don't know if anyone would care. Like I care. I just write for fun.

In general, I'm doing an internet novel. The genres would revolve around high school life, romance, comedy, slice of life, mystery and even horror. Some chapters are inspired from true to life events from my life. One of them is Do What Eye Tell You.

Do What Eye Tell You is a story about a girl who survived a near death experience from a somewhat supernatural accident. The world and how she sees it changed forever and she has never been the same after the incident.

And another:

Ivan Synclair is an average high-schooler. He hates his nickname, "Ai", because it sounds like a girl -- his close friends, Mayumi Hanarumi and Andy Rodriguez gave him that nickname since they were little. Ivan calls Mayumi Hanarumi as "Yuu" and Andy as erm... "Andy". All of them loves to play different kinds of sport. They would play baseball, frisbee even basketball together. All of them hate school, especially Yuu and Andy, but Ivan's a bit of a grade A student without him even realizing it.

Ivan has a twin sister named Rachel but she's minutes younger. Ivan and Rachel has been together ever since they were babies. [Oo! Magkapatid sila noong bata pa!] He has no father, but her mother's close to both of them.

In time, Ivan realized that there's something wrong in his body. He's been having dreams of blood and gore every night for weeks. What do they mean? There's a story why his father abandoned his family. There's a story why Rachel is extra close to his older brother. There will be a story of how he would be with his friends, especially Yuu, as the story progresses. There's a story why Rachel keeps saying that she will be with his Ivan forever.

I call this project Yuu, Andy, Ai. A pun for You and-- [dude, it's not fun when you explain the pun] Oh, right.

I'm also writing short stories using one of my favorite PC games. There are no secrets for this one. I'm using the game The Sims 2 to present a reality blog. I hope this one would turn out okay.

I'm still far away from achieving this stuff. Even if I concentrate on one story, I'd still need a lot of time to think things through. I don't want to just write it for the sake of finishing it. I'm planning and stuff, so that it would be really, at least, properly presented. Plus, this stuff counts for a University requirement here in Canada.

[I still can't believe it. You? Write a novel? Bulloney]

changelog:
- addition of Futari no Kage by Suga Shikao to the Season Two insert songs. Click here or check the right lower sidepanel.

song of the moment: Queen Paranoia by Slapshock
mood: ready for deployment.

a blog. going away to the Philippines

2007-10-17T15:22:00.000-06:00

My brother's going back to the Philippines this Saturday. And I still don't have enough money that I could send to my friends and relatives. Today's already Thursday. I should at least produce something, so that I could be somewhat proud of myself. After all, it's a sense of achievement of having to send gifts from abroad and to your love ones. But, the truth is, I'm saving money for myself right now. How much would I send? I feel like somehow there's pressure whenever one's living away from home. Maybe, it's a pressure of having the duty to share. Is that normal?

Don't get me wrong. And you shouldn't be. I'd like to send money home. Although, it's not as simple as it sounds. Oh heck with it, whatever. I'll just send the money anyway. However, I don't feel obligated to send though. Fun.

Alright, there would be a total lockdown tomorrow -- wait... it's early thursday morning right now -- I mean, there would be a total lockdown at school later. I'm not sure about the details but the police is taking serious steps towards this case.

You see, there was this graffiti and I don't know the exact details to it. The teachers aren't telling what the content is. But judging to what happened to the University of Winnipeg and too much media exposure on the U of W's graffiti, I think someone's gone whacked and is threatening to hurt someone. If there would really be a threat by a madman, then why would he or she give a schedule to go on a rampage? Can the madman just go on a rampage where everybody's not expecting?

On the other hand, there are madmen who give warning and a date of when would their rampage be. How can we define mad anyway?

Tomorrow's probably not that big of a deal. I think someone's just imitating or just asking for attention. By the way, my cousin and his friend are a few of the suspects who are behind the graffiti. Bulloney.

Yawn. October 28 is just around the corner.

song of the moment: Bring me to Life by Evanescence
mood: cough cough

a blog. my first absence

2007-09-29T00:31:00.000-06:00

I told you he'll stay in bed.

I was absent today. My body finally gave up on exhaustion. Don't get me wrong. I wasn't lazy or anything. Sleep is intended to regain back the energy lost by the day's work. I didn't had enough. I woke up still drowsy, cold, having a terrible sore throat and slightly feverish. It's almost winter. I didn't risk myself winning a dry cough or a wet cold. [Your adjectives are utterly pathetic] My health is my primary concern!

I'm concerned about my group in English. I hope they were able to finish their own presentation. Even if we'll be presenting as a group, Mr. Shaw will still give us individual marks.

I wonder what they did in History. I'll still hand in my homework. But it'll probably be deducted.

I hope they didn't do anything serious during my Photography class.

WHY AM I SO CONCERNED? [after all, you need all the marks you can get to gain an easy access to a university] That you didn't have to remind me.

changelog:
- Mayama has a new blog entry.
- Addition of Honoho (Spitz) English Translation.

song of the moment: Alone by Faspitch
mood: Still not feeling well

random thoughts 1

2007-09-17T23:29:00.000-06:00

I hate Mathematics. But I didn't thought that I'd get the hang of it at school. Or maybe it's because I already took up the lessons before that I'm getting all proud and overly emotional after each correct answer. After all, I'm back in high school to accomplish my prerequisites for University entrance.

One is the loneliest number.

I need more money so I could share my blessings here on Canada to the my friends and family at home, The Philippines.

I must finish my secret project(s) before October 28.

I rarely get long sleep. My brother uses the laptop to chat. He only finishes after 11PM or so. It's a big problem if I need to continue pursuing webdevelopment. By the way, my every finished work in the internet counts for my portfolio. It is essential to submit a portfolio when aspiring to have a career in Arts, Graphics, Communication or Information Technology.

I never thought Photography could be so hard. Plus expensive. Cameras these days are cheap but there are only a few number of models which are cheap without compromising features and capture performance. It's hard to find them. On the expensive side, only a few models are crappy. So you'll get more bang for your buck.

I miss my PHS classmates.

FruitsBlogsket just added another page element, The Weather Module. It'll help me add effect (possibly new story lines) to the Furuba Worldplay and FB Blogs.

I can't lick my elbow. No one can. If you pull it off, email me.

Two of my Fansites are under hiatus. The Waltz Dramatic isn't one of them. Wee.

I support open-source technology.

Whoah, it's already 11:26. Tomorrow's Tuesday and Pre-Cal will be a problem -- Software Apps. as well. History and English might be trouble. Maybe Applied Math will join the fray. I couldn't even play Basketball during lunch period. Harsh.

Can I be smart?

song of the moment: Everything You Want by Vertical Horizon
mood: Wee!

a blog. an assignment in Elmwood High

2007-09-05T17:36:00.000-06:00

If my USB or Jedventure.Motime.Com happens to fail loading, these are my favorite pictures that I've taken

a picture of my youngest cousin, Princess.

my cousin, Lee, looking at the beach.

another picture of a curious Princess.

My seatmate told me that the assignment could be different, that we bring a solo pic of ourselves:

when I arrived. Behold! Winterpeg.

back when I was in the Philippines.

song of the moment: No Holding Back by Faspitch
mood: exhausted. very exhausted.

a blog. zoom zoom zoom!

2007-09-02T18:24:00.000-06:00

Take note: the car is in reverse. Why, you ask? Let me tell you.

I AM GOING BACK TO HIGH SCHOOL! WOOHOO! Looking on the bright side, I will have two high school diplomas. [yehey!] Oh, shatap you fool. [But wait! There's more! Right, Jed?] I have a knife and my eye and you're twisting it.

The Guidance Counselor, the person who juiced my credentials so I can earn credits, added that I have to go back for at least one semester. [perfect!] Stop twisting the knife *stomps foot*. I can't stay there that long. By the time I enter college, my friends would have probably graduated already! Unless they repeat for a couple more years.

Anyway, I will graduate on time as long as it takes!

Going back to going back to school. I'm getting really nervous -- even though I post encouraging thoughts in my Friendster group. Yeah, I met kids who have the same circumstances as mine. They're ranting about the first day of school and how uneasy they feel about it. I tell them to chill, relax and be cool -- all three in one post. Pretty encouraging huh? Anyway, I can't blame them. Having butterflies in the stomach is normal for some students on the first day of school. However, it is not normal to have butterflies in the stomach. Just a friendly reminder. [yeah! make jokes now, bub.]

Speaking of work, the worksheet schedule is still unavailable. I mean, there's still work available to be done. I work as an Inventory Clerk / Auditor. So, if there's counting to be done in the store or the mall, they call me. The sad thing is, my work hours will reduced because of school. [stop the schools!] I can only work during the weekends then. So I need a lighter job during the weekdays. I can at least work for two days within the weekdays. Problem is, it's hard to find the job for it. [now if they could find the man for the job] Yeah, good point.

Oh man, despite going back to high school or not, I still have to go to work. They didn't accept my resume at... uhm... somewhere. It's a secret where I sent my resume. I'm still hunting, preying and praying.

Dude, I'm sticking to the October 28th deadline. I will unveil my project(s) this October 28. Hopefully, I'll be able to find and buy my own domain as well.

song of the moment: Hello Moto by Itchyworms
moods:

a blog. please be gentle

2007-08-27T22:46:00.001-06:00

Tomorrow's the day for me to go back to Elmwood High. I'll try to convince them to admit me to become one of their own. I mean, I'll enroll tomorrow. However, there's this worse case scenario that really hooked my nose to worry overdrive.

What if I go back to Grade 11? [if that happens, your younger cousins will overtake you to college! What a happy ending for them! What a sad story for you.]

If that happens.

I'm counting on my credentials to talk the talk for me. I mean, I hope the grades speak for themselves, so I won't be held back a year. I can also talk but what is talk when the school needs is an actual proof? [yeah... like what you're doing right now. You still suck]

I asked my cousin about how she handled their proceedings. She, too, is a landed immigrant and is a graduate of Elmwood High. She said that she brought her credentials along. When they examined her papers, it was all good. However, she said that they gave her a Math and English exam. Only the Math ringed my brain.

I brought reviewers along; reviewers I got from the UP Math Club. I don't know what they were doing in my luggage.

changelog:
- Mayama has a new blog entry.
- new wallpaper. check out MWNF Gallery. Wallpaper by Jasmine of Minitokyo.
- addition of Gone by Urbandub to the Hachikuro Radio playlist.

a blog. class, we have a new student routine

2007-08-17T23:07:00.000-06:00

I never thought I'd say this but, I can't wait to go back to school. [Blasphemy!] You're right. It's weird. Ugh, creeeepy. I never should've typed it earlier. [Then erase it! BACKSPACE! CTRL + HOME AND DELETE! OR CTRL + A AND DELETE! BETTER YET DELETE THIS BLOG AND LET'S NOT TALK ABOUT THIS AGAIN!] You're exaggerating too much exaggeration. I just mean that I'm okay going back to school. That's it. I'm not in love with the idea. Love is a big word. It's a huge commitment. Say, I like the idea of going back.

I wonder if my classmates will like me! [that's loser talk! You shouldn't-- I mean... it fits you perfectly] Thanks. I need all the encouragement I can find.

song of the moment: All Under Heaven by Faspitch
mood: blanked

a blog. grow up, will ya?!

2007-08-15T00:06:00.000-06:00

I wonder how they do it; People who study and work at the same time. September's pretty far away, but if I'll continue my study after high school I better get my ass working as well. It's a shame my motivation to work isn't college but having a Nintendo Wii. I MUST HAVE A WII!

Seriously, I have a motivation to work. And... it's my Parents. Yeah. Honestly.

My Father was offered a high salary job. He already has a job here in Canada. That's the problem. He's having second thoughts about it because it resembles his old job in the Philippines. He was contemplating not to accept it.

But what kind of made me feel weird inside is when he said, "I'm old."

When he said that he's old, I could understand what he was saying. And I respect that. My Pops is old. I'm not saying that it's too bad. But I guess, the time has REALLY come for me and my big brother to start distancing on dependence. And onto independence. [you won't last one day by being independent]

Take note: my little sister's still naive... and a brat. [hope that she never finds this entry] CRAP! She already knows web surfing! AND SHE ALREADY HAS A FREAKING FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT! WHAT IS SHE THINKING?!

Whether he accepts the job or not, the time for pampering is over. You're on your own now, kid.

I was talking about having to study and work at the same time, right? Now I'd like to talk about having to study, work... [and have a girlfriend...] I was going to say 'grow up' or 'to have my own apartment'. But since you brought that up: I might as well ask how teens w/ jobs, school and relationships do it. Simple, right? [better save this subject for another day]

song of the moment: Flowing by 311
mood: okay lang naman.

a blog. omg! It's hail! time for HALO HALO!

2007-08-10T14:19:00.000-06:00

It rained hail last night. A severe thunderstorm warning was sent out on a short notice but it's a good thing we were able to catch it on the tube. I wouldn't say we felt scared, but rather amazed. There were loony to twoonie sized hail on the lawn [are you sure, you could've gone outside to make sure] No, I'm pretty sure about the size. [no really, you could've at least stepped outside and... I don't know. Maybe get hit; just to support your claim] That isn't necessary. Anyway, after looking how bad the storm was, I became really worried about our car. However, the hail didn't make any significant impact on the parked cars beside the sidewalk. Thank God.

Wait, there's another thunderstorm warning. It says that it'll rain tomorrow early morning.

October 28

My brother is talking in his sleep right now.

Oh yeah, about the title of my post: I'll say that again when winter arrives. Nothing beats indulging Halo- Halo outside in a below zero winter.

song of the moment: Forget by Typecast
mood: nothing much in my head right now

a blog. one month from now

2007-08-04T23:32:00.000-06:00

Enrollment time! ZOMG. This could be a problem. I have to decide what course to take or else, I might end up needing one prerequisite or two.

I'll be enrolling tomorrow for Grade 12. Yes, I'm going back since I need to finish the required prerequisite(s) of my future major in college. Problem is, I chose my path in a short notice. [too bad there's no business economics, wahahaha]

Originally, I'm divided whether to go back to Gr.12 or go to College. Now, I have to choose whether to study in a University or College; after claiming my Gr.12 diploma. Wow, if everything goes according to plan, I'll have two high school diplomas. [yippee yo ka yey]

I really want to study in a University so I searched the net and inquired on their programs. It turned out that they're limited. Plus the programs that I want to take weren't present.

Onto the colleges, there are programs that I want to take. If only they were available to the side of my favored university.

Why study in a University, PEOPLE might ask? Well, PEOPLE also say that graduates from Universities receive more attention than graduates from Colleges. Talk about a name game. That is purely subjective to some individuals. In the end, IMO, it all depends on the graduate him/herself.

song of the moment: Gone by Urbandub
mood: worried a bit

a blog. let's get it owned!

2007-07-30T23:25:00.000-06:00

expect heavy resistance
Wow, July is almost over. And here I am, just suddenly reappearing without giving The Waltz Dramatic any significant update. Anyway, I'm sorry about my absence. I'm currently engaged on three projects and all of them require full attention; I'd like to express my excuse to the visitors of The Waltz Dramatic and the rest of my side projects.

little teasers:
1. Project BLOG (acronym is still confidential) - a sort of reality segment that will revolve on 10 individuals / contestants.
2. Project Nelse - my first e-novel and I have my special eye on this one.
3. Project HE - my Christian website.

They're somewhat big projects and I need to get them right, or else, I won't be able to get my own domain.

There will still be sporadic updates and I will keep blogging here. So don't worry.

song of the moment: Ikot by StoneFree
mood: quiet. very exhausted

a blog. are you serious?

2007-07-10T21:49:00.000-06:00

Trabaho na naman bukas. And they want me on the site at 6AM. I wish I won't be really busy working my ass off this week -- especially during Thursdays. The bad case scenario would be: having work in the morning and having work in the evening as well. [oh you'll be fine] Pfft, I wish.

My mom lectured me again, as usual, about doing chores in the house. She said that I'm no help and always slouching on my bed. The funny thing is, she didn't notice the vacuumed carpet, the odorless living room, their bedroom prepared plus their blankets properly folded. Ahaha, I just kept quiet about cleaning the house and hoped that she'd look back on what she overlooked. I'm kind of a scapegoat. [so you did clean, right?] Yeah. I wonder how Mom missed everything. [aww. you wanted your Mommy to be proud of you] No... wait, that too. But I wanted to show her that there's more than what meets her eye... eyes... erm... TRANSFORMERS!

... which is a movie that I haven't watched yet. Curses!

It's a promising movie. I haven't read nor found any negative comments on the internet about it.

Dude, I know this may sound a bit negative but July will just come and go. [actually, July is already here. So... July will just go] And since that's the case, the enrollment will be on August. I'm going back to Grade 12! ... or work for another year again and convince the University of Manitoba to sign me up as a freshman. Sigh. Or go back to Grade 12. Curses!

song of the moment: Hintay by Sugarfree
mood: laughing right now

a blog. a captured field

2007-07-05T01:48:00.000-06:00

a field of Canola.

I love photography. I'm saving money so I could buy a DSLR or an SLR, even a film, especially digital, and a Polaroid *optional*. Most likely a Digital and an SLR. But I know they cost a fortune. My cellphone would calm me down for now. Although them future cameras are already on my wishlist. [yeah, along with Wii, PS3, Xbox360, Car, Girlfr-- hrmph] shut up. Ahehehe. Now that I have work, begging no longer works. So I have to save. Oh Sweet Heavens, I have to save.

I shot a field of Canola right after we went fishing. We were on the way to pick strawberries right after but the farm was closed. [apparently, someone picked every strawberry] Not me.

That's just a little of what happened last Sunday. Oh yeah, we also won a 2 on 2 basketball match that morning. They woke me up early, so I got all fired up. In the end, I unleashed hell.

As for my visitors, sorry for the absence of the songs. It was a surprise and I should've prepared for the inevitable. The apparent attack on my server crippled five of my radios (Furuba FM, Blog Hina Radio, School Rumble Radio, Kare Kano Radio and the Hachikuro Radio) [lots of radios. You need to come up with alternative names] Yeah, I know. I needed to be straightforward at that time. Going back to the topic, I have moved the 3/5 to one server and the 2/5 to another. It took about half a day for me to complete everything.

On to the news.

changelog:
- I have transferred the songs (insert songs seasons 1 & 2 + Hachikuro Radio) to another server. As of now, my former host is still messed up. Anyway, after all that manual transfer, all songs are available once more.
- addition of Je t'aime lyrics (season 2 insert song).
- addition of Inaka no Seikatsu by Spitz lyrics.
- pasted navigational buttons on top of each The Waltz Dramatic blog entry.
- changed Memories Will Not Fade and Just Keep Pedaling navigational buttons.
- Yamada has a new blog entry.
- Mayama has a new blog entry.

song of the moment: Salamin by Kala
mood: nothing extra ordinary

a blog. bring the holiday over

2007-07-02T02:25:00.000-06:00

I had fun today. We, me and my cousins, went out to watch Die Hard 4 erm... Live Free or Die Hard, eat pizza, watch the fireworks, drink Iced Capps and enjoy the holiday. [wow, you got it good. how 'bout sending money home?] I will. I will. But not yet. Three out of six of us (half and half) have no work tomorrow. Pretty sweet, if you ask me. [I knew you're too lazy to be true]

My eyebags are getting bigger. [Waaakekekekek] what... ever. Did you know that the fastest way to remove one's eye bags is surgery? I was afraid of that. I think another remedy is cream: Contour cream or facial cream or a moisturizer or a facial cream or ice cream. Hell, slop them all on the face. Finish it up with a cherry. Lie down and wait for the dog to lick and indulge. I'm not a makeup artist. [so... what's your point?] My point is: one should start early. [uhh- huh] I mean, Men could also make use of this thing called "cream" as early... as 25? [can we just go back to where you actually know what you're talking about?]

We ate at Boston Pizza after watching Live Free or Die Hard. We love the Honey and Garlic Chicken wings. Unfortunately, I ate only a few Honey and Clover erm... Honey and Garlic Chicken wings after eating... well... Pizza. I got full quick. Too bad for me. Them wings are finger licking good. [well if you had money eating outside, then why don't you send money home?] Sigh...

After eating at Boston's, we only had 10 minutes to travel downtown to watch the fireworks. We didn't have much time to make a stop over at Tim Horton's. We were a bit sleepy.

John McClane returns to save the Earth from the Silver Surfer with the help of Robots in disguise -- don't forget to watch Live Free or Die Hard.

We were a bit surprised when we arrived at the venue. There were a lot of people and, apparently, the rules of parking were ignored. [well you shouldn't have been surprised finding out a crowd on the venue] Yeah, I should be surprised if it was otherwise. I mean, it is Canada Day and there should be a crowd there, right? Anyway, there were cars parked and lined on the side of the road. There were no fixed position to watch. Oh well Time was running out and we had to make a decision fast. It's a good thing we pulled over on one side where traffic wasn't obstructed. Plus there was a police car in front of us that also pulled over. [oh no... ticket time!] No, man. He's part of the security.

The fireworks display lasted about 12 minutes. I couldn't describe the fireworks that colored the sky. I guess I could only write one word about it: they were freaking beautiful! [uhh- huh] Then we went to Tim Horton's for a cup of Joe. While sitting and watching stuff outside through the window, I saw someone got pissed. I think he threw a wheelchair, stomped and spit on it. I'm not sure if it was a wheelchair or a garbage bin. I'm not sure why he's all rilled up.

After that, here I am. [Pretty dry... pretty dry]

changelog:
- uploaded two songs at Hachikuro Radio: Waltz (instrumental) and Split (instrumental) by Suneohair
- server crashed. Hachikuro radio is currently offline. I'm on the case and I'll give an update as soon as it's fixed.
- encountered a bug in the website. I'm off for bug hunting. Please wait for the updates.

changelog: (7/04/07)
- partially fixed Hachikuro Radio's problem. A server transfer has taken place. The Insert songs are still down. If my server is still unavailable by tomorrow, I may be forced to move to another one.

song of the moment: Nanjan by Parokya ni Edgar
mood: the coffee is wearing off

a blog. Phase one is a go!

2007-06-30T14:41:00.000-06:00

Phase one of my secret project is complete! I'll share the link to you when the time's right. I just need to farm more entries and let it grow. I'm utterly anxious to find out what the readers' reactions would be after reading my said project.

Unfortunately, and for the most part of the whole mission, there are still four phases left. That means, I need to finish four more pages to at least establish a working link. Wooh. Long way to go. Long way to go.

I found myself juggling my internet time. Have you played Tales of Pirates? Have you played ROSE Online? I play both games. I have no life. I'm juggling my airtime because I AM, as of now, hooked with Free-to-Play MMOs, while I shouldn't be leaving my blogs to rot -- especially when I've completed something that I have to finish.

I found a bunch of old photos lying on a corner. They're childhood / baby photos and this triggered a nostalgia. You know, when someone leaves their home to another country, take note: they should bring their pictures with them -- old photos / new. 1x1, 2x2, IDs, Passport sizes are one thing. Photos that would serve as a remembrance is another. It helps, especially when one has a scanner. So I scanned them all and posted them on my Friendster. Now my friends' would find a good laugh for sure.

changelog:
- addition of Honestly by Harem Scarem to Hachikuro Radio

song of the moment: Alay by Imago
mood: peachy

a blog. Red River Excapade

2007-06-22T13:35:00.000-06:00

We went to Red River Ex yesterday. When I asked my cousin what Red River Ex is, he told me it's Enchanted Kingdom. Oh... amusement park. It is an amusement park but they only hold it yearly. Think of it as a huge Perya / Carnival.

We rode the Megadrop first. It'll lift you four - five stories high and drop you in seconds. Talk about G-Forces.

Right. Four stories isn't so bad. Now the drop is a different story.
From left to right: kuya Marvin, Mac Mac, some guy who's desperately trying to be cool, and Lee. ate Marie is holding the cam for us.

We rode bumpcars next. Yes, bumpcars. Fortunately, you don't need a license to drive bumpcars. We needed a lighter ride from the heavy MegaDrop.

posing before the bump. from left to right: some guy, kuya Marvin, ate Marie and Lee. Mac Mac's holding the cam this time.

After riding the bumpcars, Mac separated from our pack of four because some girl was expecting him. I mean: Someone.

A lot happened. I saw my boss (it's unbelievable and funny. I was anticipating this sort of situation and it's the reason why I didn't want to go to Red River Ex because well... I didn't want to get caught. He knows I'm at my other part time work. :P Fortunately, he didn't see me back.) I got a taste of great pizza, experience and everything.

Snake on a Motherf*cking Pavement!
I was about to touch the Python but when I saw the sign that reads Wash your Hands after touching the animals... Nevermind.

It's already 9PM and the sun's still here. From left to right: some guy smiling, ate Marie and Lee. Kuya Marvin's with the cam.

We came home not empty handed with the booths. Ring tossing, pool, basketball, darts and throwing balls to knock three blocks on the table weren't my forte. We won one teddy bear. It's a not so hollow victory. And you know, Lee alone spent 80 bucks on the Knock the Three Blocks off the table game just so he could win that little motorcycle. What more could ate Marie, the boss, spend? It looked so easy to knock the three blocks and win that ride that we got hooked into it.

It's ten and the Sun finally set. Time to go home. Mac's back from his escapade and he's back with the cam duty.

song of the moment: Huling Gabi by SugarFree
mood: excited

a blog. move it! move it! pump it! groove it!

2007-06-19T23:45:00.000-06:00

Actually, I shouldn't be working tomorrow. But when my boss asked me to go, drop the plan.

He was passing around a piece of paper and he was asking each of us for our signature, the signature of commitment. If you sign on that paper, you work tomorrow. Simple right? Umm... not exactly. If he hadn't been there, and if there was only this random guy or girl who was passing it, it could've been a lot easier to maneuver things. However... His presence is the booby trap! DAMN! DAMN! DAMN!

When he was in front of me, I blanked and I just signed the damn thing! While I was signing it, my mind was saying "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?! WHAT ARE YOU... NO! NO! NO! STOP SIGNING!! STOP! STOP YOUR HAND! THIS IS NOT HAPPENING! oh well, you're dead." I was supposed to say NO, but he had this look on his face that says YOU CANNOT SAY NO. Resistance is futile. Enter Darth Vader: Inhale. Exhale.

I asked my second boss if it's possible to work on Wednesday only and not on Thursday. Otherwise, I may have to work two jobs on Thursday. Unfortunately, his answer is also convincing. He replied to me that it's preferably to work on both days. PREFERABLY? Awww, now there's no point in masking what you mean, chief. So, here's the gameplan for Thursday. After RGIS, go home and get ready for the other job. Now that's something really exciting. WOOHOO!

or... I could just call in sick. Not a good idea for a starter.

Now scream! SCREAM LIKE A LITTLE GIRL WHO NEVER SCREAMED BEFORE!!

changelog:
- addition of Namida ga Kirari song and lyrics. check out the Insert songs (season 2) section at the lower right sidepanel.

song of the moment: Ikaw Lamang by Silent Sanctuary
mood: tired. exhausted. drowsy. groggy. yet blogging.

Happy Father's Day

2007-06-16T19:34:00.001-06:00

WANTED!
.... for being the perfect Father.
I couldn't think of anything fancy, so I figured I might just post a caricature of my dad that he drew when he was just in college. Wow, this drawing's older than me. Anyway, HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

song of the moment: A320 by Foo Fighters
mood: mmmm... okay lang

a blog. sorry for the late updates

2007-06-15T00:08:00.000-06:00

I'm doing a project of my own. It's not a fansite, nor a roleplay diary for an anime, or anything related to anime. It's nothing fancy. But it's related to webdevelopment and this project means so much to me. It's a secret project that would divert all of my effort to it, thus explaining the of slower updates. Sorry, but I may have to tone things down for a while.

changelog:
- Mayama has a new blog entry.
- Morita has a new blog entry.

song of the moment: The Message by Grandmaster Flash
mood: weird

a blog. don't stop

2007-06-07T19:26:00.000-06:00

Pasensya na sa tagal kong pagkawala. May iba lang akong inatupag. Anyway, another paycheck just arrived. WOOHOO! [Yabang]

Napansin ko na tila nababawasan na ang airtime ko sa internet. I mean, hindi na ako masyadong avid sa pagsusulat ngayon. Which is a bad thing. I really want to be a writer / novelist one day. I have my characters, plots, coupled up with twists and the likes in order to write a novel. Hindi ako kuntento sa isang simpleng nobela. Pasensya na. [You suck]

The war is on
One thing is for sure. The war is still on. I will not stop and there will still more features in the future. [features in the future]

on a side note: Starcraft 2 is coming!

song of the moment: Blurry by Puddle of Mudd
mood: inggit

a soup. cookies!

2007-05-30T22:40:00.001-06:00

A young lady was waiting for her flight in the boarding room of a big airport. As she would need to wait many hours, she decided to buy a book to spend her time. She also bought a packet of cookies.

She sat down in an armchair, in the VIP of the airport, to rest and read in peace. Beside the armchair where the packet of cookies lay, a man sat down in the next seat, opened his magazine and started reading.

When she took out the first cookie, the man took one also. She felt irritated but said nothing. She just thought "What a nerve! If I was in the mood I would punch him for daring!"

For each cookie she took, the man took one too. This was infuriating her but she didn't want to cause a scene.

When only one cookie remained, she thought "ah... What will this abusive man do now?" Then, the man taking the last cookie, divided it into half, giving her one half. "Ah! That was too much!" she was much too angry now.

In a huff, she took her book, her things and stormed to the boarding place.

When she sat down in her seat, inside the plane, she looked into her purse to take her eyeglasses and to her surprise, her packet of cookies was there, untouched, unopened!

She felt so ashamed. She realized that she was wrong. She had forgotten that her cookies were kept in her purse.

The man had divided his cookies with her, without feeling angered or bitter... while she had been very angry, thinking that she as dividing her cookies with him. And now there was no chance to explain herself nor to apologize.

There are four things that you cannot recover. (in my opinion, they're hard to recover)

The stone after the throw.
The word after it's said.
The occasion after the loss.
The time after it's gone

song of the moment: Will You Ever Learn by Typecast
mood: still not a hundred percent okay

a blog. music matches

2007-05-23T13:34:00.000-06:00

Yep. I've been able to confirm that my friend received a one year contract to play his music in China. [what a freaking winner] Actually his band received the one year contract. He's the lead guitarist [eye and ear catcher eh?]. He's also my bandmate but he has his own and I have my own as well. I have three different bands back in the Philippines. One with my childhood friends, with Sam, the guy who's going to China, another with my High school friends and the third band with my college buddies. Our college band is called Ham and Egg.

my high school band. Cris, a retard, and Raffy.

ham and egg practicing in the dorm. Jaya, a retard on a box, Rom, Lando, Rannon is missing and Ralph is holding the camera

brads: John and Sam and....

sisters: Nice, Lovely and Dines.
They're members of my childhood band. (we really had a hard time coming up with a name other than Emsiyemai)

I miss all of these guys and gals. I just want to wish Sam God's speed and success to their venture. Come to think of it, does he understand Chinese? He told me he can't but Chinese understand English. Yeah, I have to agree but not all. Anyway, to wherever he's going, they'd probably play to an English oriented audience.

Handsome!... guitar!

Master beat! Master beat!
The exhausting concert was worth it.

changelog:
- addition of Much Has Been Said (Bamboo) song at Hachikuro Radio
- Morita has a new blog entry.

song of the moment: Mr. Pogi in Space by Radioactive Sago Project
mood: Uncomfortable. I think I swallowed a bit of plastic.

news. radio down

2007-05-18T03:30:00.000-06:00

There has been a server problem that rendered my uploaded songs (insert songs and songs at Hachikuro Radio) inaccessible. Not only Hachikuro Radio, other five radios have been affected due to my server's transfer. As you can see, Gbspace[dot]com is no more and all of my files were transfered to Uploadway[dot]com; Thus spelling broken links.

I had to manually correct every broken link of five radios from five different fansites: Hachikuro Radio (The Waltz Dramatic), Blog Hina Radio (CYFLoveHina), Furuba FM (Fruitsblogsket), Kare Kano Radio (My Circumstances), and School Rumble Radio (SchoolRumblog).

I didn't notice right away that the songs weren't working on each website. I figured the problem quickly and, fortunately, it took me only an hour to straighten the mess. I also encountered various navigational bugs along the way and fixed them right away.

song of the moment: Sway by Bic Runga
mood: just woke up

a blog. still no reply?

2007-05-13T09:25:00.000-06:00

Argh, there's still no email from my boss. [wow, who's the boss in this conversation?] I mean, I asked if there will be an activity tomorrow, Monday, right? I just don't want to go to the site with no one around. I'll look like a fool. [You already are] Okay. Extra fool. I sent an email last Wednesday. Look what time is it. [10:30 in the morning] Err, what day, I mean. [Sunday. I get it already, sheesh]

Happy Mother's Day everyone. I just don't want this greeting unannounced. Have a great week ahead!

changelog:
- Takemoto has a new blog entry.
- Yamada has a new blog entry.
- uploaded four new season 2 soundtracks. Je t'aime (Spitz), Happy Birthday (Suga Shikao), Natsukage (Suga Shikao) and Ringo Juice (Suga Shikao). Je t'aime and Happy Birthday currently have no romanji lyrics while Natsukage and Ringo Juice have been added with their romanji lyrics.
- Hachikuro Radio server will move! Please wait 'til I give the go.
- OK NOW GO!

song of the moment: None
mood: still with the cough

a blog. sit down and rub your feet

2007-05-10T23:27:00.000-06:00

Nasayang lang ang kahapon. I just stayed in bed all wednesday, para bang na- basted o nilagnat. Hwooh, iba talaga pagsapit ng Lunes at Martes. I never knew counting stuff could be so hard and tiring. [counting? that's it? what a freaking loser] I also never knew advertising could be so hard and frustrating. [advertising? that's it? what a freaking loser] Kailangang masanay. Ganyan ang buhay. I made a rhyme.

Hindi ako makakibo sa kama. My hands were shaking, my eyes weren't even in the condition to watch TV, my feet were aching, it's a familiar sensation. Pero galing lang sa trabaho -- hindi na sa high school o kolehiyo. [gulay] I guess what I'm trying to say is: napagod talaga ako noong Martes. Kaya inilabas ko lahat ang pagod sa Miyerkules. Buti na lang sinabi ko sa boss ko na pwede lang akong magtrabaho tuwing Lunes at Martes dahil may iba pa akong hanap buhay. Kung hindi ko sinabi yun, maaaring may dugo na ang ubo ko. [a pleasant sight]

Ang nakakatawa pa noong Martes ay pagkatapos kong umuwi galing trabaho, nagyayang manood ng sine ang pinsan ko. Hindi ko napigilan at sumama naman ako. Para bang suot suot ko yung pagod tapos tinapon ko sa basurahan. Hayun nanood kami ng film ni Nicolas Cage na NEXT.

Next is very good. Malamang kikita ito. Don't ask why. Ang daming pasikot sikot. Maraming twist. Hell, the whole film is a twist. Don't ask why, so just watch it. Next is for your own benefit. I made a rhyme. Kumain pa kami sa labas pagkatapos. [pagod pala ha]

Kumain kami doon sa resto kung saan nagtatrabaho yung nakakabata kong pinsan, say si pinsan A. Ang masaklap pero medyo nakakatawa, dito natanggal si pinsan A sa trabaho. Buti na lang wala yung former boss niya habang kumakain kami.

Pag uwi namin, kailangan naming bumalik sa resto kasi nakalimutan ko yung Toronto Raptors cap ni Pinsan A. [body aches, forgetting things, tumatanda ka na]

The night was still young. Sarcastic remark nung pinsan kong driver na "where to?" Eh ang sagot ko naman "well the night is young. How 'bout the park?" na medyo tonong pabiro. Although I was serious, they just laughed and we drove home. [boohoo] Oh well, may pasok pa pala yung pinsan kong ate kinabukasan.

Oo kung nagtataka ka, lima kaming mag- pinsan umalis.

Pagdating namin sa bahay, hinanap ko sa basurahan yung itinapon kong pagod at sinuot ko ulit. Diretso sa banyo para maghilamos at sa kama na pagkatapos. At sa kama ako nanatili kinabukasan. [ang saya ng buhay mo]

song of the moment: Erase/Rewind by The Cardigans
mood: good thing there were no papercuts

a blog. start the engine

2007-05-06T20:45:00.000-06:00

After my third job training -- and maybe my last training -- I've only become a bit comfortable with the rhythm and a whole lot nervous to tomorrow's work. Am I going to be alright? This question keeps popping up like a pop-up ad. I can't get rid of it.

I have to work on Monday and Tuesday. Although, I wonder if my schedule is fine with my boss. [slacker]

I accidentally cut my finger. Then I didn't notice that I also have two other paper cuts.

They got me really confused. Does the company decide the day(s) that I have to work or does it provide the available day(s) so all I have to do is select which day I'm available? I probably should ask tomorrow [nagger] -- okay after work. [still a nagger]

I told my Team Leader that it would really help me if I could join a carpool. I haven't memorized the how-to-get-here-and-there of Winnipeg. I might get lost you know [poor you]. Expect a great deal of exploration tomorrow, Jed.

I've also received my first paycheck today. Too bad they misspelled my name.

My job hunt is not over. My Thursday and Friday slots are still unoccupied. I told my Parents that I'd be looking for a third job. They didn't have any problem with it. Although, I should take it easy. If I take my part time jobs too seriously it would really disappoint me if I take all three seriously the moment something wrong happens.

I need to pray.

song of the moment: Erase and Rewind by The Cardigans
mood: restless... should scream any minute

a blog. moving while standing still

2007-05-02T22:15:00.000-06:00

I felt like I used half of my body's energy when I woke up this morning. [yume?] I was a little exhausted in the least manner of work. Maybe it has something to do with my weird dream -- two memorable dreams actually.

I had a dream that I went back to the Philippines just to eat at Jollibee. Some of my not-so-close friends were there. It was a weird dream.

I also had a dream where I went back to attend to my old church at San Fernando, Pampanga. There were a lot of familiar faces. We were eating lunch at the Sunday School. I played a little drums. Then I couldn't remember anything onwards. Sounds like an exhausting trip eh? Well, after waking up, I really had a sensation that a considerable amount of my energy was gone. Ahaha, I remember our temple trip to the Taoist temple.

I remember that the Taoists believe -- Alright, I'm treading on deep waters. Correct me if I'm wrong -- that there are three spiritual layers to an individual. I'm not sure if there are three spirits, layers or spiritual layers. Anyway, when a person dreams, they say that the first layer leaves the body, thus witnessing different places and events. [so that explains your weary wake up?] No. I'm not a Taoist. Getting back to the topic, when a person goes in a coma, the first and the second spiritual layers leaves the body. When all three leaves, the person dies.

Crap, now I remember my last year in the University of the Philippines. I wonder if I should've stayed in a dormitory during my 2nd year. I mean, my last term in UP before going abroad was boring. I'm starting to see the advantages of living in a dorm. It wasn't bad living with my brother in his condo. There were no curfews. I had luxury. I could do whatever I wanted to.

But there were also things that I could do in a dorm that I can't outside:
I get to room hop, I get to play LAN with my floor mates, tons of conversation, get out of the dorm and go to different places, share interests with each other, stay up late just to finish an anime series, the list goes on, right?

[wait, you have no friends in class? what a freaking loser] No, I have acquaintances. It's just that I was in no mood to open up to them. I couldn't do it unlike my dorm friends. My friends in Kalayaan Residence, my first year dormitory, were also like my brothers. Hell, I'm really comfortable when they're around and we can talk almost anything under the sun. It was important. I felt a little hope that I could move out from my bro's condo and move into dormitory to join them and fill the gap. I guess I wasn't that SOCIALLY deprived. I lacked help.

Yeah, I also remember that they helped me with my homework, presentations, studies and a few take home exams. Hehe. That comfort really helped me continue. Don't you think they're valuable? Finding lesser friends in each classroom was no problem for me. It wasn't an issue. I just missed the fun of learning. That's all. Besides, my stay was not long enough for me to really understand the people I met in my last classes.

changelog:
- added Only One (Yellowcard) to hachikuro radio

song of the moment: A Day in the Life by Bee Gees
mood: with sore throat. :(

a blog. nerves of spill

2007-04-28T23:49:00.000-06:00

Bummer talaga. Tinatamad ako at parang gusto kong mahiga sa sahig kapag iniisip ko ang mangyayari bukas. Lunes lang naman. Araw kung kailan ibibigay ang aking uniporme. [That is kung doon mo gustong magtrabaho] Oo, most likely sa RGIS na ako magtatrabaho. I prefer to work part- time there. Not full time [obvious ba?] baka sumakit ulo ko.

What's my plan? I choose to work three part- time jobs. So far, I have one at home and one outside. And I'm looking for a third job. While at the same time pushing forward my projects online and offline.

I will be working on Mondays and Tuesdays at RGIS, Wednesdays at home and hope to find another part time job to fill my Thursday and Friday slots. [si... si Jed ka ba?! Ikaw ba si Jed?! Hindi ikaw si Jed!! Anong ginawa mo kay Jed?! Tamad siya! TAMAD!!] Tapos... RELAX pag Sabado't Linggo. At magdamag sa kama. [Hindi okay. At hindi ikaw si Jed]

Hwaah, medyo anxious talaga ako bukas. Nervous kung nervous. Excited kung excited. Bakit? Medyo nakataya nga lang naman ang pangalan ng RGIS kapag nagkamali ka. Eh ang trabaho ko pa naman na Inventory Clerk - Auditor, talagang hindi maiiwasan ang pagkakamali. I hope they would cut me more slack. Hey, naguumpisa pa lang naman ako ah. I keep telling myself, the world of RGIS does not revolve around you, Jed. I HOPE SO!

Don't worry, Jed. May error naman na ibibigay sa iyo eh. Hindi ako sigurado. Five percent -- I think. I mean, We are humans. We're not perfect. However, my job requires me to be as accurate as possible. I am dealing with crucial numbers and the business relies on the validity of those numbers. The more errors you get, the lesser business friends you'll find. [no pressure eh?]

Okay, inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. Now scream! [scream like a little girl who never screamed before!!]

song of the moment: How to Save a Life by The Fray
mood: Anxious pa rin

a blog. thoughts on loneliness and being alone

2007-04-22T03:16:00.000-06:00

We all heard someone say "I think I need to be alone for a while." You should let him / her be. Quite frankly, being alone isn't so bad. And take note that I don't even like EMO music -- I hate it by the way. It's an embedded medicine. [embedded medicine? What the hell is that?] you know, it's a method of self healing that only you know how to use it.

We all need some time for ourselves. There comes a time when you need to sit out, feel the breeze, not be bothered by someone else and be at ease. It gives you time to reflect on what you've accomplished or what you've ruined. It gives you the moment to savor the victory or throw objects at the wall because of some unpleasant defeat. [like everyday?]

I'm quite flexible when it comes to being by myself. I can be with other people and be alone. No bragging by the way. [none taken. Although it is sad if you'd brag about it] Sometimes, I tend to look like I'm alone in my own crowd and I'm not even trying. [wow you're a natural loser] I don't even notice. Then someone would approach me and ask if there was something wrong or bothering me. It's just me... being me. That's all. I guess I'm like what you call an arbiter.

Speaking of observing, there are also circumstances wherein you get to know other people just by looking at them. You get to familiarize with them by the way they dress, they react to another person, they move about. It's totally normal. There are people who are introvert and extrovert at the same time. Believe me, I know some people. Heck, my friends told me that I'm one of such. [I can imagine the discovery channel]

It has been my habit to hunger myself of people. It's refreshing.

It also occurred to me where I found a lot more friends by myself. Did it occur to you that someone messed up your style and poof you met lesser friends?

Much often than the usual, I eat alone at fast food restos because my friends don't want to accompany me. Or they don't have money -- sounds reasonable enough. When I crave for fastfood, I don't bother. Take a bath, get dressed, move and eat. That's eat... err... it. [corn to the y, man]

Yes sometimes being alone is worthwhile. There are no hassles, no demanded social interactions, no one to bother you, no one to meddle with your decisions or whatsoever, no one to give you crappy opinions, the picture is all yours.

Let me reiterate. Take note 'sometimes'. No man is an island.

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song of the moment: Bombtrack by Rage Against the Machine
mood: jumpy

a blog. When it's hard to pretend

2007-04-18T02:44:00.000-06:00

It’s so hard to pretend that you’re not in love with someone — where in fact you love her very much. It’s almost impossible to hide your feelings and make believe that you don’t feel anything towards someone special — even if she’s just beside you. It’s just that… I don’t want to risk our friendship and I don’t want to mess our current connection with everyone. Everything will change. Or is it?

Am I afraid to be rejected? I guess it will hurt if I get rejected, thus it’s a scary experience. I- I’ve never experienced as such and I have no idea what I’ll do to myself if I ever get rejected. I say I’m afraid.

I mean, if I have to tell that I like her, should I expect something back? Something positive, perhaps? Hmm… if I won’t expect something then why risk telling her? Does she have to know? Would she turn down others if I tell her?

Why am I afraid of telling her? I’m thinking too much. There’s too much worry of the consequences that might not even happen. Heh, apparently I’m playing with my feelings.

Why? Will she avoid me if she finds out? If that happens, then the friendship that I had a hard time building will just end up in the dump.

Is friendship not good enough? What’s wrong with friendship not good enough? It’s possible that I want to be more than friends. I want to stay with her for the rest of my life. So much so that I’d take the whole package.

I have to supress myself. I have to help myself and keep it together. I have to transfer all this feeling on a paper. Afterwards, laugh at myself and my entries about love and become unfamiliar of myself once again.

song of the moment: Blue Moon by Orange and Lemons
mood: tired. very tired.

lighter side : be patient

2007-04-16T02:29:00.000-06:00

A man observed a woman in the grocery store with a three year old girl in her basket. As they passed the cookie section, the child asked for cookies and her mother told her "no." The little girl immediately began to whine and fuss, and the mother said quietly, "Now Ellen, we just have half of the aisles left to go through; don't be upset. It won't be long."

He passed the Mother again in the candy aisle. Of course, the little girl began to shout for candy. When she was told she couldn't have any, she began to cry. The mother said, "There, there, Ellen, don't cry. Only two more aisles to go, and then we'll be checking out."

The man again happened to be behind the pair at the check-out, where the little girl immediately began to clamor for gum and burst into a terrible tantrum upon discovering there would be no gum purchased today. The mother patiently said, "Ellen, we'll be through this check out stand in five minutes, and then you can go home and have a nice nap."

The man followed them out to the parking lot and stopped the woman to compliment her. "I couldn't help noticing how patient you were with little Ellen..."

The mother broke in, "My little girl's name is Tammy... I'm Ellen."

changelog:
- started adding lyrics and songs to Season Two Soundtracks: Nakayoshi (Spitz), Pool (Spitz), Koko ni Iru Koto (Suga Shikao), Honoho (Spitz)

song of the moment: Wake Up by Rage Against the Machine
mood: a little nervous, thank you.

a blog. Where's my dictionary?

2007-04-11T17:29:00.000-06:00

Sorry for the unexpected blog break. I've been out working on a different project. My online novel, that is. It's nothing big and I'm very sure I'm treading on deep waters when I'm talking about 'this'. Heck, I don't even know how to continue with it. However, the plans look promising. I'm getting a little bit excited thinking of the chapters in my head. [insomnia]

My novel project shows that I'm trying very hard writing, struggling to even pick up shards of thoughts and ideas to form a cohesive story. I'm having a hard time but the drafts are set -- yeah, set to be on fire. Maybe because I can't write simple English. [heck, you can't write at all]

Simple English? You know, sometimes we add too much color in what God knows we're writing and in the end it might not make sense at all. I remember my English One professor telling me that the effective way of writing is write what you mean. Don't make it too complicated, don't make it too loose, don't make it too flowery, out with it already.

It's up to your creativity on how to keep your readers glued to their seats and make them patient as you point out the climax of everything. And oh yeah, I almost forgot. Make your sentences short.

My professor also told me not to correct the sentences right away. Instead, take a walk after finishing the whole essay, or whatever and come back. Then, check and correct. Having a friend look at the finished document is also a nice technique. [in your case, having a whole barangay won't still help you] The later grammar check is also effective when you're dying to tell something but words escape you to express it. Just write down what you have in mind even if they're just phrases or words and look at them later. That way, you'll be able to find the right terms to connect each points. Authors who are in a hurry will have trouble with these tips. I'm one of them.

changelog:
- added Here I Am to Worship and Cry Holy (all from SonicFlood) at Hachikuro radio
- uploaded Yoru Wo Kakeru (Spitz) at Hachikuro radio
- added Nami Hikari by Suga Shikao, Tamagawa by Spitz, Sakana by Spitz, Sorosoro Ikanakucha by Suga Shikao, Y by Spitz, Yoru Wo Kakeru by Spitz songs for you to sing along
- fixed broken links of embedded songs
- completed embedding the season one insert songs!

song of the moment: My Redeemer Lives by Planetshakers
mood: thinking very hard

a quick update

2007-04-03T19:46:00.000-06:00

Yey to me! I woke up early this time! But then I went back to bed after having breakfast. Anyway, I just made a quick update on my Honey and Clover Gallery (memories will not fade). Click here to turn the page.

song of the moment: Breakdown by Urbandub
mood: full

a blog. Sunday! Sunday! Sunday!

2007-04-01T16:18:00.000-06:00

It's Sunday. Time to go to church. I usually go to church every Sunday. It's not just a habit. It's a way of refreshment. Sometimes, I can't really think straight or I get more pimples over a week of absence in church. [you are talking for yourself, right?]

I got up pretty late. I mean I should've gotten up an hour and thirty minutes before ten, the time our ride arrives. Why? Well I'm not living in my own house right now and it would be really embarrassing if I made myself at home too much by spending a long time in the bathroom. Yeah, I really really take my time when using it. Anyway, to make the matter worse, my stomach ached right after entering the bathroom. [make that 15 more minutes] Man, a lecture from mom afterwards.

I was really surprised on my Pastor's message. Technically, the Pastor that gave the message today isn't really my Pastor. He was a guest speaker and he took off right after his message to catch his flight to Toronto. The guest Pastor will attend his business there and eventually fly to Manila. [did you say Manila?] Yeah. I'm sure he'll need to eat a lot of halo- halo afterwards. Anyway, back to I was really surprised on my Pastor's message, the message is my testimonial [yeah, and your testimonial was a lot longer than Pastor Rene's mesage. Pastor Rene's message: 5mins - Yours: 15mins] back when we were at THE FREE CONCERT. THE FREE CONCERT, brought by MCMI, was held on my birthday and the memories of it are still fresh. [so where are the youtube videos?]

10Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.
11Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.
12For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
13Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
14Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness;
15And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;
16Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.
17And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:
-- Ephesians 6:10-17

According to the weather forecast. There is still a week of snow left. Jumping grandma on a stick, I thought we were all the way to spring. Guess I have to postpone my getting up early routine.

just a quick message: Fruitsblogsket has a new layout! Come check it out and leave this noob blog!

changelog:
- added I could sing of your love (sonicflood) and I can only imagine (mercy me) at hachikuro radio.

song of the moment: Blue Moon by Orange and Lemons
mood: peachy, just peachy

a blog. open the door

2007-03-27T01:03:00.000-06:00

Sooooo... it's finally spring. Good good. Now, I can get a move on.

On the other hand, it has been a boring monday. [Boring is such a strong word, eh?] It has been a not-so-active day. The place that I spent the most time today is my bed. I'm thinking I started the day wrong and I'm really counting to make amends tomorrow. Hopefully and since it's spring, things will turn around and become proactive.

Which reminds me, I will be playing the drums again this coming Thursday. Problem is: not being able to play for months made me rust. I'm having a hard time pulling up combos and stuff. It's the same feeling that I had that pulled up second thoughts of continuing. [loser talk] However, a fresh start here would answer my second thoughts. I just hope I can keep up with the new folks in my new church.

Speaking of a new start, my brother will start working tomorrow. He's on an evening shift and I bet my bro needs to readjust his body clock fast. Oh yeah, my mom's really excited about bro getting his first job. [nakaraos din ano?]

It just hit me that my older brother is the first apo (grandchild) to graduate and have a job in our circle. We're talking about my grandparents right? Not my cousin's other grandparents. Okay let me clarify: He is Nanay and Tatay's (My dad's mom and... dad. I call them Nanay and Tatay) first apo to graduate and have a job. He is Apong Fey and Apong Tico's first grandchild to graduate and have a job. [Too much clarification... idiot] Anyway, he better buy me a PS3 after his first paycheck. Kidding.

changelog:
- uploaded How to Save a Life by the Fray at Hachikuro Radio.

song of the moment: Una by Sponge Cola
mood: I'm m'kay

a blog. da farewell

2007-03-23T02:04:00.000-06:00

I now realize the meaning of farewell. Farewell doesn't mean that you'd have to go far away so much so that you won't be able to see your friends or love ones. Yes, saying farewell means you won't be able to see someone for a time. [time?] time - you know, in a jiffy, after lunch, overnight, over a week, after a month, months, after a year... years.

For me, farewell isn't knowing what's happening to your friends and love ones and feel that you're left behind from their latest achievements. [hmm... thinking of new pc peripheral devices... a nose usb? a skin usb?] They're not able to share the real sensation of victory and disappointments. One hardly knows the latest from everyone back at home.

Sure there's the internet. Sure there's the overseas call. There's the web cam. There's the photo messages. But they're not enough, isn't it? I, for one, would like to feel the heat in the Philippines. Is it really hot there? And then my friends would go... is it really cold in Canada? stuff that we should know for ourselves in order to be satisfied.

Anyway, it's just a recent realization and I feel really stupid about it. Sorry, I'm really clueless and thickheaded it's almost a crime.

changelog:
- added four songs: hachimitsu (spitz), august serenade (suga shikao), tsuki to knife (suga shikao) and mistake (the band has no name).
- hachimitsu and august serenade addition at hachikuro radio

song of the moment: Heroes by The Wallflowers
mood: daijobou

a blog. what are you doing?

2007-03-20T00:20:00.000-06:00

My cousin just showed me a video clip of how summer looks like. By all means, forward to summer. Their backyard was green and the ground looks alive. However, there's still snow on our backyard and, apparently, winter is here to stay. I mean, it's still snowing outside. I'm itching to start exploring my new neighborhood.

"oh, you brought a camera with you?"
I'm starting to hear my mom complain. [about the weather?] No, she's starting to complain of how I handle my life here. She thinks that I'm still on hiatus. [oh because, you're always asleep, sitting on the couch or in front of the computer?] True but I'm not going stay on hiatus forever. She thinks that I like doing nothing. Hell no. It's the complete opposite.

First off, I don't know my neighborhood very well. Second, it's still cold outside to explore. Third, apparently, the jobs I'm looking for are in the downtown area. Since I don't know my neighborhood, like I would know the nooks and crannies of downtown. Fourth, I'm not the only one looking for a job. [huh? are you saying you may have to wait for your parents to land a job before you find one?] maybe. [nuts] I feel like I'm being rushed.

She signed up for this. You know, since we're all newbies here in the cold and the neighborhood and everything and we're just living under someone else's house, she should have anticipated that these circumstances will happen. Hell, I want to have a job and a condo unit and get starting already. [fit for the job?] Anything that is at least within my capacity. Realistically speaking, I shouldn't be picky of whatever my job would be since I'm really at the bottom right now.

I'm really affected at how my mom reacted. There's a thought in my head that says "I guess she wants me to be occupied with something... OR she wants me to leave early in the morning, pretend that I'm busy, and go out somewhere heaven knows where and be back in the evening after whatever -- instead of staying inside the house." For the sake of seeing me busy? That's crazy.

I guess seeing her little sister [your aunt] and her family provide us our basic needs really got to her. Who could blame her? But I guess these matters take time. Come on, we've only been here for three weeks.

[How 'bout college?] I could enroll as a college freshman. Or else, I may have to enter grade 12 first. The teacher in Elmwood High told me that it's totally up to me after checking my credentials and transcripts. I'm thinking of entering grade 12 first. College is expensive, man. I don't want to bother my Parents for a while. I think they have their hands full -- especially my Mom.

Anyway, the synthesis. I'm not going to be a slacker. I hate doing nothing. After graduating at Pampanga High School, where they threw a lot of work for us to finish, the spirit of having so much things to do on so little time stayed in my blood. [Expansion of skills and interest] don't worry, Mom. I won't forget my promise.

song of the moment: Deeper Underground by Jamiroquai
mood: with a smile

a blog. treat as urgent

2007-03-17T23:39:00.000-06:00

We've just received a picture from my aunt. It's the picture after we checked in our baggage. Gaad, the scenes are still fresh while pushing my trolley to the counter. [great A320 by Foo Fighters just played on my laptop] The air became heavy. I feel all gloomy. Everyday, I wonder what's happening over there in the Philippines. Everyday, I'd imagine how our old living room looks like. Everyday, I ask the same question: when will we host our grand reunion?

Day by day, if ever there will be a grand reunion, it's okay to wait. I'm also looking forward to seeing all of my classmates and friends. They like to kid around and how I wish they'd become serious about it. [you wish that they would come here as well?] You betcha.

Aight, I'm going to bed. Oyasumi.

song of the moment: A320 by Foo Fighters
mood: blue

a blog. keep your photos with you

2007-03-15T00:45:00.000-06:00

While I was browsing my laptop, I chanced upon a folder where I kept a picture of my old house. [OF COURSE I also have pictures of my loveones and friends taken in the Philippines] But, somehow, seeing our old house made an impact [a sentimental impact, that is] on my part. Everything came back. I also told dad to take pictures of my room, the kitchen -- every part. Sad to say, we forgot. [Oh and BTW, if you're planning to go abroad, a week for packing is not enough. Give yourself at least two weeks or more.] Yep, we were so busy packing that I forgot to do a simple but meaningful job.

me, snow everywhere and my uncle's house
Sorry 'bout the image. It was taken by a cellphone. We also forgot to buy a digital camera. But forgetting that is all good.

Aren't we looking for something very simple but priceless? There we have it. A simple picture of something... or someone. [well. I could ask someone to take pictures of my old room right now. no problem] The thing is, I want to hold the camera. I want to take the picture. I want to savor the moment of being inside that room and take whatever I want for the benefit of having a remembrance. [whatever, you just sound like too sentimental if you ask me]

There goes another problem. To everything that is too much, is BAD. I guess this is just me writing while being homesick. OMG, I'm homesick. [there you go]

I'm on my third week in Canada. THIIIIIRD WEEEEEK. Three weeks and I'm homesick. Whew, when is spring coming? [march 21] I guess I need more time to adjust. We do have different paces to adapt. Heck, my little sister adapted to her new environment in just a week. [however, she's not that good in English... yet] On the plus side, they're teaching her French at school. I don't know French.

Wah, I just wish the COLD weather would end. [In Winnipeg?] Yes, in Winnipeg. Actually, I may have to wait for summer. I will hold on! And look for a part-time job. Get an apartment. Go to college... etc.

my old pink sanctuary
song of the moment: First of Summer by Urbandub (WAHAHAHAHA! SUMMER DAW O!)
mood: itchy

a blog. abracadabra

2007-03-11T01:23:00.000-06:00

sadly, even though I've unpacked everything, after settling in, while I'm sitting and enjoying the fine ambiance, I still can't believe I'm in Canada. My memories of living in my homeland, the Philippines, are still fresh. [technically, we've just been here for two weeks. so there's no wonder] Another thing, I still can't figure out what to write. Oh and another! And maybe the worse one. There are a lot of things here I want to do and try out. Problem is, I can't point what I want. As a result, I just sit on the couch and watch 500 and plus channels everyday. [yep. it's a mighty problem to choose one when there are other ONES to choose from] one. It's still freezing outside. two. I have no idea about getting around here. connection to one and two? I can't stroll around and develop my routes because it's still too damn cold. I mentioned STILL, right?

I'm going to do it when spring breaks. While I'm at it, I should be able to choose something I want to try out. Maybe get another part-time jobs. [wow, two part-time jobs. Isn't it better to get one full time?] I'm still a student and I heard that Network Admin or anything related to Networking is in demand. Yep, my uncle in Toronto consulted me. He told me them Networking boys and girls get the cars and the riches. [Is that a fact?] mmm... maybe. Figures, the internet is spreading like a disease. [a disease? a disease in a good way? is there such a thing?] I mean, you can access the internet almost everywhere and you can find almost anything in the internet these days. And it's also a good place to establish a market. Networking isn't a bad course... or is it? Math is my waterloo. I'm having second thoughts if I'm cut for it.

song of the moment: Someday by Sugar Ray
mood: unsure

a blog. smirk

2007-02-16T13:24:00.000-06:00

I'm somewhat bothered at what's going to happen at my blog-city account. They're going to switch from portlets to widgets and when I made the switched, my blog posts sunk. I prefer the old portlet style. Studentlife @ Blog-City is one of my oldest blogs in the net and I don't want to switch providers. I just wish I can keep up with the changes blog-city will offer.

Click here to visit the gallery.

song of the moment: Fugainaiya by Yuki
mood: confused

sentimental. Story of Two Teardrops

2007-02-14T10:52:00.000-06:00

Two little teardrops were floating down the river of life. One drop said to the other, "I am the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him." Who are you? "Well, I am the teardrop of the girl who won him."

Love is very strange. Love is unconditional commitment to an imperfect individual. You need it but when you love, it's like destining yourself for pain. You become addicted and dependent on the person. You become strong and at the same time, you open yourself up to being hurt. Love can make you bear any kind of pain and any kind of sacrifice. It can also make you feel stupid and act stupidly. Sometimes when you love and end up giving so much of yourself, subconciously you only discover how much you've given when the person you love hurts you or has to say goodbye.

Then you realize, an important part of yourself is already with that person. It goes away when he leaves and you are left with a sickening, empty feeling inside.

Tears are bound to shed from your eyes no matter how you force yourself to keep them in. Most teardrops ever shed on this earth have been for love or lack of it. When tears dry, a silent loss sticks to your heart for a long, long time.

Well, that's what you get for caring so much about someone. But how can you regret it? To give yourself freely and lovingly is the most beautiful thing you can do. Loving makes you real. Loving also makes you cry. And that is why a teardrop is also BEAUTIFUL.

song of the moment: Time Has Come by Hillsong
mood: don't know what to do

sentimental. love and time

2007-02-13T10:00:00.000-06:00

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love.

Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.

When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said, "Richness, can you take me with you?" Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!"
"I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."
"Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder,

Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"

"It was Time," Knowledge answered.

"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"

Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."

song of the moment: Burnout by Sugarfree
mood: hampagoooood na naman!

a soup. dear friend

2007-02-12T17:18:00.000-06:00

Dear Friend,

As You got up this morning, I watched you and hoped you would talk to me, even if it was just a few words, asking my opinion or thanking me for something good that happened in your life yesterday but I noticed you were to busy trying to find the right outfit to put on and wear to work or class. I waited again. When you ran around the house or dorm getting ready I knew there would be a few minutes for you to stop and say hello, but you were too busy. At one point you had to wait fifteen minutes w/ nothing to do except sit in a chair. Then I saw you spring to your feet. I thought you wanted to talk to me but you ran to the phone and called a friend to get the latest gossip. I watched as you went to school and work and I waited patiently all day long. With all your activities, I guess you were too busy all day to say anything to me. I noticed that before lunch you looked around, maybe you felt embarrassed to talk to me, that is why you didn't bow your head. You glanced three or four tables over and you noticed some of your friends talking to me briefly before they ate, but you didn't. That's okay. There is still more time left, and I have hope that you will talk to me even yet.

You went home and it seems as if you had lots of things to do. After a few of them were done, you turned on the TV or the net; I don't know if I like TV or computers or not, just about anything goes there & you spend a lot of time each day in front of them, not thinking about anything-just enjoying the show. I waited patiently again as you watched TV and ate your meal but again you didn't talk to me. At bedtime I guess you felt too tired. After you said goodnight to your family you plopped into bed and fell asleep in no time. That's okay because you may not realize that I am always there for you. I've got patience, more than you will ever know. I even want to teach you how to be patient with others as well. Because I love you so much, a long time ago I left a wonderful place called Heaven and came to Earth. I gave it up so that I could be ridiculed and made fun of. and I even died so you wouldn't have to take my place. I love you so much that I wait everyday for a nod, praise or thought or a thankful part of your heart. It is hard to have a one-sided conversation. Well you are getting up again and once again I will wait with nothing but love for you hoping that today you will give me some time. Have a nice day!

Love Always, Your Friend,
Jesus

song of the moment: Good Morning Sunshine - Aqua
mood: hampagoooooooood

a blog. power overwhelming

2007-02-10T11:11:00.000-06:00

Overwhelming. There were so many people at our despedida party that I couldn't even figure out who they were. Of course, there were friends and relatives but I couldn't point out who's a friend and who's a relative. I was a bit overwhelmed about the number of people who came to visit and, now that I think about it, I just realized that our house was a small venue for the party. Hwooh, there were kids running around, teens playing my PS2, friends banging my acoustic box. With so much people, apparently, we were like candidates for the election.

I'm not complaining. It's really surprising how many people came. And to think that I was about to invite my classmates. Good thing, I planned a different schedule. And... speaking of which, I'm still undecided of when it'll happen.

I have a new laptop, just sharing. It's almost somewhat a game platform but I'm a little bit pissed at its processor. Anyway, my new rig is classified for some personal reasons. Besides, it's not that important. God's blessings are pouring down on me once again.

I'm about to go shopping sometime next week before our flight. At least that's what I'm hoping to do. That would be the bomb and it should be grand. I hope there's a new sneakers waiting for me there... or a wind breaker.

See you at the UP Fair. Jaa matte ne!

song of the moment: Fugainaiya
mood: obvious ba? hampagoooooood!

a soup. not our fruit alone

2007-02-09T03:33:00.000-06:00

A voyaging ship was wrecked during a storm at sea and only two of the men on it were able to swim to a small, desert like island.

Not knowing what else to do, the two survivors agreed that they had no other recourse but to pray to God. However, to find out whose prayer was more powerful, they agreed to divide the territory between them and stay on opposite sides of the island.

The first thing they prayed for was food. The next morning, the first man saw a fruit-bearing tree on his side of the land, and he was able to eat its fruit. The other man's parcel of land remained barren.

After a week, the first man was lonely and he decided to pray for a wife. The next day, another ship was wrecked, and the only survivor was a woman who swam to his side of the land. On the other side of the island, there was nothing.

Soon the first man prayed for a house, clothes, more food. The next day, like magic, all of these were given to him. However, the second man still had nothing.

Finally, the first man prayed for a ship, so that he and his wife could leave the island. In the morning, he found a ship docked at his side of the island. The first man boarded the ship with his wife and decided to leave the second man on the island.

He considered the other man unworthy to receive God's blessings, since none of his prayers had been answered.

As the ship was about to leave, the first man heard a voice from heaven booming, "Why are you leaving your companion on the island?"

"My blessings are mine alone, since I was the one who prayed for them," the first man answered. "His prayers were all unanswered & so he does not deserve anything."

"You are mistaken!" the voice rebuked him. "He had only one prayer, which I answered. If not for that, you would not have received any of my blessings."

"Tell me," the first man asked the voice, "What did he pray for that I should owe him anything?"

"He prayed that all your prayers be answered."

For all we know, our blessings are not the fruits of our prayers alone, but those of another praying for us.

song of the moment: Breathe Your Name by Sixpence None the Richer
mood: uncomfortable

a blog. pinch me!

2007-02-08T03:38:00.000-06:00

Pinch me! I must be dreaming!

I have a new laptop! Huwaw! Medyo na- overwhelm ako nang mahawakan ang aking very own laptop! Disente pa naman ang rig niya! GeForce Go 7300 256MB ang Videocard. Intel Duo Core ang processor. 120GB ang Harddisk. Hindi ko nga alam kung kabahan ako o magsaya. I just want to thank God for giving me such a giving father. Ahehe, dadami na naman pimples ko 'neto.

song of the moment: Good Morning Sunshine by Aqua
mood: overwhelmed. overjoyed.